Mel's meaningless rambling

2010-12-18T16:57:00.002-05:00

Max has parvo. I should have known not to get a puppy this year, this year has been the year from hell. He is in the vet hospital, we are looking at about 1000.oo vet bill if he pulls though or not. It only took 2 weeks for me to love him, and him to love me. 2 weeks to a broken heart if he doesn't make it

2010-12-10T22:13:00.003-05:00

Max is here!

well we got the puppy Tuesday. Hubby swore the puppy would NOT be sleeping in the bed with us, but he has every night so far lol. He is adorable, and has panic attacks when he cant find one of us. The other dogs are not too impressed so far but they will deal lol. They hate sharing attention, but there is lots of attention to go around. We named him Max after the Grinch's cartoon dog, because he looks like him. He has already figured out his name i think anyway. Potty training is an issue, the Canadian doesn't want to use a crate for him and so far training has been unsuccessful. Hopefully he will catch on soon and hopefully we will get a warm up so he will want to be outside

Feeling better this week. Yay. way better. Still wear out easy and still eating everything in sight. I hope i can get off the predisone before i go into a diabetic coma lol.

More excited about Christmas this year than i have been in a long time. I'll be home for Christmas for reals :):)

Picture was done tonight, Icarus and Max doing a bit of bonding :)

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2010-12-05T17:25:00.002-05:00

Christmas is coming, the goose is getting fat....

And the goose , well that would be me lol. Predisone makes me wanna eat everything anything anytime!! Its crazy, i had very little will power before but now...well there is NONE. I made sugar cookies today and eat them right out of the oven before they cooled! I couldn't wait lol. Of course they are better that way anyway. My face is already gotten the "puffy" look that people on Steroids have.

But i feel better so i cant complain but so much, I would rather be fat and alive than svelte and dead. LOL. And i do feel better, its a slow process, very slow but i am getting better. I can feel it. I also found out the vacuuming is prolly a no no right now, but i can sweep ok go figure.

Got some Christmas shopping done this weekend, by myself. Last week i wouldn't have even tried that but its all about feeling better. I went early and its wasn't too bad, the worst part was the check out lines. Online shopping was a bust, although i did use amazon for some stuff. Every site i went to they didn't have the size i needed or it was out of stock. It was frustrating, I was counting on doing most of my shopping online but oh well.

I am excited about Christmas for the first time in years!! I cant wait for my Christmas day lunch with the family. I am still hoping for an i pad but alas its just too much. Stupid Apple and its stupid high prices lol.

OH well , i guess we are getting a puppy. I emailed the lady and told her this is bad time, and she understood but then she sent a picture of the pup. The Canadian saw the pic and i did too and it was instant LOVE. Dammit. I wont post the pic here, i don't know if i can yet. But you will see when i can post pics what a doll this little fella is. He looks like a brown Brindle. The girls at work think i am CRAZY, literally. The crazy Greyhound lady. That's me. Anyway i think the rescue group is getting him next week, so we will have him soon I guess. Anyone have a puppy sized belly band? lol

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2010-12-01T06:23:00.002-05:00

Major good news :)

According to my blood work the meds are working and my body is no longer rejecting its own liver :) Doc was very pleased and even smiled lol. My blood results are dramatic, its strange what your own body can do it itself. So hopefully the trend will continue. He says i will be on the anti rejection drug for "a long long time" whatever that means but he reduced the steroids thankfully. Maybe i wont be such a bitch or so maudlin, and maybe i can sleep better too.

My legs have been bothering me too but he thinks its because i haven't had my b-12 shot since the biopsy, so i need to get one of those soon.

And of all things, we got an email from the greyhound rescue group that puppies will be available. Grey pups are hard to get, its prolly an opps litter that they cant register. So we are torn about this, we want another greyhound puppy, we have raised 2 now but the timing kinda sucks. I don't even know what to tell her. We get first dibs since we helped found the group. But also i know if we don't take it they will find good homes. EVERYONE wants puppies. We are very happy with the pack we have now, do we wanna throw another pup in here? LOL.

What say u?

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2010-11-23T22:39:00.002-05:00

So do you feel ANY better yet?

This is the question i am getting asked this week. I guess people think after 3 weeks on the meds something should be different. Its frustrating, I don't really feel better, in fact last week it was worse but i really think a lot of it is of the medicine. This is some strong shit I am on lol.

So I feel like i am under a microscope, everyone is watching me to see ...what? I don't even what is normal anymore lol.

But knock on wood, i did feel a smidge better yesterday and today. I dont wanna even jinx things by saying that. And its not much of a difference. Time will tell. I see the doctor on Monday and the weekly blood tests should tell if i am really getting better.

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2010-11-18T18:26:00.002-05:00

Mel's Gadgets :)

Week 2 of the meds, i have had some bad days but then some days are ok. The doctor doesn't think i should be working at all but what else would i do? Sit around and mope and get depressed? Nope. I need money anyway for all my fun gadgets. I love gadgets lol!! Plus my work is not hard, stressful sometimes but not physical.

Speaking of gadgets, I love my Nook, although sometimes i think i should have gotten a kindle but the instant i want a book I can get it. Instantly. Awesome. Another great gadget is my droid phone. It does so much stuff but making a call is challenge sometimes go figure :) I downloaded Mansfield park on it and listen to it at work.

And my 3rd best gadget ( this is like Oprah's fav things....Mel's Fav things...think I could get a talk show?) Is my DVR. I am a child of television, i love TV. always have. I was not one of those mothers that wouldn't let my kids watch TV....i watched and I am not a serial killer. But the DVR is great, i can watch what i want when i want, I can leave in the middle of movie and pause it.

Last best gadget is my Kreurig coffee maker. I was off my coffee for a while, just didnt want it but the urge is starting to come back to drink more coffee. Its funny how when u r sick your tastes change in food. Anyway, instant cup of perfect coffee in seconds, you cant beat it. Plus there are flavored coffees galore out there for it.

Oops cant forget my i pod touch. Thats been on my fav list for several years now. I like the instant song thing too :)

OK i guess I am done. I am not get any $$ for endorsing this stuff, but next on my want list is an ipad. Why? I don't know why I just want one lol. So if anyone wants to talk to Steve jobs or whoever is in charge there , maybe i could product test?

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2010-11-14T12:23:00.003-05:00

Good times :)

I started my meds Tuesday, so far i am not sure if i see small improvements or not. It still hurts, and the predisone is working on my attitude big time. I am ill tempered and i know its the drugs so I am trying to not bitch whine gripe fuss whatever. At home its easy, at work its hard to not lash out. But i am trying lol The good news is i am tolerating the anti rejection drugs well, now if it works.

Nothing else is really going on around here this week. I havent felt like doing much. Thought about trying to do some Christmas shopping this morning but the sales are still not great yet. I am a bargain shopper, lol or i try to be anyway.

I am trying to stay upbeat. Its hard, I wanna do normal stuff and I cant really do much of anything. Ugh. I am fighter though and i am NOT going to give up.

Maybe soon I will have good news for the blog. What a bummer this is to my readers lol.

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2010-11-06T22:32:00.002-04:00

The Biopsy is over, and i didnt bleed out lol yay. I fact i did quite well, although I dont remember what i said to the radiologist (who also happens to be my boss), I am hoping i didnt call her a cheap bitch for taking our health insurance away while the docs kept theirs (of course) lol. Versid is good for making you tell the truth i think.

I will find out monday what the biopsy showed and the course of treatment. Huge doses of predisone has been mentioned. Cant wait for even MORE weight gain on that lol.

Zed asked what this has done to me. For a long long time i have had terrible back and side pain. Mentioned it to several docs and was told that back pain could be almost anything. My abdomen is distended. I am tired all the time. Sometimes it feels like a baby is inside me moving around (really dunno what the hell that is all about). I have turned a yukky shade of yellow and my pee is bright orange. Thats about it. They only found this in routine bloodwork. The biopsy was to tell them how advanced this is.

So there it is. I have read up on this too, and had to stop, its scary shit. I too am hoping for remission.

My daughter came from Virginia to see me, and it was sooo good to see her. We didn't do much but being with her made me feel better. Yes, i am not above using this turn of events to get attention from my kids lol

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2010-10-31T08:16:00.003-04:00

Auto Immune Hepititis. This is what i have been diagnosed with. Just when i wonder whats next this happens. Biopsy this week, after 2 weeks of getting me off blood thinners to get ready for it. the good thing about this is, i am not as lazy as i thought i freaking have a an excuse now for being useless lol

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2010-10-11T06:53:00.005-04:00

i am a bad bad blogger. I know it, you know it (not that anyone bothers coming here anymore). I find it easier to do short blurbs as to what is going on thru Facebook but sometimes i need to say more or i need to curse (fuck fuck fuck) which i cant do there because my ultra religious cousin and her family is on there. Although they think i am heathen that's going to hell anyway so i guess i shouldn't care. But i do care what people think. I always have. And that sucks. I wish i could be like my hubby, he truly does not care what anyone thinks.

We have had a rough year, hubby's heart attack and my eye surgery and financial issues because he was out of work for 2 months. We are finally caught up finacially but we have NO cushion at all. We could cut back on cable or or smart phones but i am spoiled and I dont want to lol. thank goodness so far we haven't had to. But my work is thinking of shutting down and going to a medical billing service. They have already taken our insurance away, and my raise this year? .25 cents an hour lololol. I didn't even notice it.

Well i am off to said work thought i would post a pic our new doggie, Icarus. He is handsome don't ya think??

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2010-06-30T06:18:00.002-04:00

We adopted a new greyhound 2 weeks ago, he is so awesome i love him so much!!! Nothing can take away the pain of losing my other babies but he helps. He helps so much! His name is Icarus, and we call him Icky lol.

Went to Virginia to visit my mom and my kids. had a great visit, although there was one fight with mom over the vacuum cleaner (of all things really???) I don't know how we get into arguments, it happens without me even realizing. Its ALWAYS been that way with her and me. Too much alike maybe? I dunno. But other than that it was nice. Saw the brats, Stuffgirl is still engaged and almost living with her futures family. Kornfan is living with his girlfriend and her baby, I really am not sure about that. I really like his girlfriend and the baby is a cutie but the baby calls him daddy and is way attached and i am worried if things don't work out its gonna hurt everyone more. But its their lives i am just on the sidelines lol.

work has been crazy, a real good friend of mine left her husband and has turned into someone i dont know. She says she hasn't changed so i guess i didn't really know her anyway. I warned her that her associations with certain peoplw would not look well and sure enough she is in trouble at work, serious trouble which i NEVER thought possible for her she used to be such a good worker. And I think back to when i went through my divorce was I THAT different? Did i change that much? I got in trouble at work then too but mostly it was because my ex kept calling and getting me upset during work hours not cool. Oh well. That was 4 jobs and a lifetime ago lol.

time to feed my doggies, later :)

2010-05-31T18:43:00.002-04:00

well I had a sucky memorial day weekend. I have a painful bladder infection that just wont go away, my husband was on nights on weekend, then had today off. I thought maybe we could go to dinner or SOMETHING together but NOOOOO he decided to go night fishing. I am not mad really just hurt and disappointed. MY friends are with their families enjoying what they can of a rainy weekend but i alone. Again. I want my family, i miss them and doing stuff with them.

The good things about this weekend was sleeping in, always a plus, and getting a few things done around the house. So i guess we should always look on the bright side.

Yesterday i downloaded 3 new books to my Nook, lol. i can spend money and not even leave the house :)

I hope everyone else had a great weekend though :)

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2010-05-29T10:46:00.003-04:00

just a pic of my old girl Raven :) Ignore the messy background lol that has been cleaned up, Honestly it looks like a hoarders episode lol

My hubby is working all the holiday weekend, I get so lonely on the holidays when he is working. I am taking myself to a pedicure to console myself lol.

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2010-05-27T19:42:00.003-04:00

I watched Julie and Julia the other day, what a great movie!!! It made me wan to blog more but I don't cook so a cooking blog is out of the question lol. I guess I will just continue with my randomness like always.

Things are looking up here finally. I seem to be recovered from my eye issues. The Retina doc says its still early so he expects even more improvement. I am all for that lol. It rarely hurts anymore, always a plus. It does hurt when the weather changes how freaky is that lol?? Hubby is recovering very well from the heart attack but he still has some mental issues. He says he wakes up sometimes at night when the realization hits him that he had a heart attack. I have been there, it does something to your mental state when you good health is gone forever. I cant think about my heart failure or diabetes or other crap too much, cuz it will just drive you crazy.

We had a scare with our Chihuahua Raven. She is 12 now and went downhill so fast that when we took her to the vet we fully expected not to bring her home, every time we take a dog anymore, we end up having to put them down. But Raven is not going anywhere, she has heart failure too, now she is some of the same meds i am lol. She is never gonna be spry again but dammit she is still here and we are so happy about that. We have to carry her around alot but she is 7 lbs, lol pretty easy to carry.

Been thinking of getting a new greyhound, a boy. Just thinking at this point.

Work is ok, i really like what I do but we are understaffed so everyone is always slightly stressed. I would like work better if I could go in after 11 every day, I hate early anymore.

Oh LOST was awesome!!!!! I know alot of peeps hated the ending but I just loved it. Now I am lost on tuesday nights lol. Thank goodness True Blood is coming back on soon.

Oh I bought a Nook!!! It was my celebration gift to myself ( I had to sell my wii to afford it lol) in honor of the fact that i CAN read and have awesome eyesight after the surgeries. I couldn't decide between a Nook and a Kindle but decided on the Nook and I do love it. Except I have to remember to keep it charged lol. I had a doc appoint last week and forgot to charge it so I didn't have a book to read. Luckily the doc was on time that day.

Thats about all for this random session.

2010-05-04T06:59:00.002-04:00

I lost my Melvin last week, he was in kidney Failure and we had to have him put down. It breaks my heart. Now Raven is really slowing down, she is old and is just slowing down like normal for her age but its scary. I want another Greyhound but I haven't been able to bring it up to hubby yet. LOL.

Also I think i am prejudiced against heavy drinkers. I wonder how I got here lol.

And its time to go to work.

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2010-03-07T12:38:00.002-05:00

Wow I was really a downer in that last post. I have friends, hopefully good ones but still i always feel left out. Most of my friends want to do athletic stuff, hiking and dancing classes and i cant do any of that, although i can do a bit more than i could before, i still have bad legs. Oh well. I see the girlfriends on TV shows and wonder why i cant a group of friends like the sex in the city ladies or the ones on cougar town lol.

I have my cataract surgery Tuesday. I am nervous....its silly after my last eye surgery was more complicated but i am nervous about this. I cant wait not to wear an eye patch. :P

With all the surgeries and heart attacks in this house i havent been able to travel...I havent seen my mom or my kids since last summer. I miss them!

later....

2010-03-02T06:33:00.002-05:00

Why are friends so hard to come by for me, and when I do get close and let someone in, i just get disappointed BIG time. How come some people have kept close friends since school days?? How is that possible? I know i should try harder but then always get hurt. People suck today lol hopefully tomorrow will be better.

That is all

2010-02-28T15:39:00.003-05:00

Ha I am posting again and it hasn't been a year yet :) shocking. I dont think i have any followers anymore, oh well.

I am still wearing the eye patch (arrr matey) but will have cataract surgery on March 9Th and will have almost perfect sight in one eye!!! Awesome, I am excited. Downside, i have to go back to wearing a contact lens in the right eye until the cataract is ready in that one. Ugh, boo to contacts but it will be ok. I just have to get fitted for one its been 2 years since i wore them.

My 2 best friends are drifting away from me.....they want to do really physical stuff that i cant do and they have a new bestie now and i feel left out. It was bad for a while for me but now i am used to it. They say i never call them, which is true but its hard to talk and they tell me about all the fun stuff they have been doing lol. Why are good true friends so hard to come by?

Hubby loves the cardiac reahab, i knew he would. He even got put in time out for working his heart too much lol.

OK out for now Happy March and beware the Ides!

2010-02-21T17:29:00.003-05:00

OK so its been over a year since i posted here. I am lazy i have no excuse, i love the short feeds on facebook as a way to keep up with peeps. Met so many great blog pals thru this old blog of mine.

Its been one hell of a year here. my daughter made a decision that hurt me deeply, and after it was said and done she was hurting too. I just hope she uses more of her brains in the future.

The Canadian had a massive heart attack, according the the doc it kills most that have them this bad. My biggest fear is losing him....even though he can be extremely difficult from time to time. Lol i am sure he says the same about me. They didn't do a stent because his heart actually grew new veins or something, I don't know its all very confusing to me but the doc (who is also my heart doc a wonderful man) says leaving it alone and resting was the best thing. He was in the hospital a week and out of work for 2 months. He is back at work now and seems better than ever. Having a hard time with the heart diet though lol.

As for me in September i noticed some bad floaters in my left eye. Since my eyesight is bad to start with i went straight to the opthomalogist. He said they were just floaters and my eyes would eventually adjust to them. They got worse and worse instead of better though. I just thought it was something i had to live with but then it really took a turn for the worse while hubby was in the hospital. A line swooped down over the top of my vision and was there all the time, it didn't move like the floaters. But still i was dealing with hubby's issues and didn't go to the eye doc for a couple a weeks. I had a retinal detachment which meant immediate surgery to save the sight. I thought easy laser surgery of something but i was wrong it was awful lol. It was bad, the surgery and the recovery is all i will say. Now i have to get a cataract removed in the same eye, the surgery sped up my cataract which was already there. I can see out of that eye but the vision is not what my glasses correct for so i am still wearing an ugly eye patch until the cataract surgery, then i can get a new lens. It would cost about 400$ to get it now so there is no sense its paying that and then need another new lens after.

We lost Deuce our Greyhound this year too, again that was hard. I am down to 6 dogs now lol and Melvin has been limping some lately too. Trying not to think about losing another one. The picture is Deuce in his prime. He won alot of races but when he retired he was one lazy dog :)

I gained about 10 lbs back but so far i have leveled off. I would love to lose more but for now i am content and my blood sugar is excellent.

I guess that's all for now...maybe it wont be another year before i post again :)

2008-12-31T21:32:00.002-05:00

I am in Virginia visiting my mom...thank goodness this trip is better than the last one! she was sick before and paranoid. Anyway, she is better...she still has some issues but its been nice. my kids where both here...i miss them so much! They are both gone now ..off to enjoy new years like young people do...me i will probably be in bed at midnight.

Christmas was way better thann i expected...it was just me and hubby but still it was nice. He surpised me with an electric car starter...i cant wait until he installs it...i know i am going to love it so much. my car will be toasty and warm and de-iced before i get in it! I will be so spoiled!!

I am going crazy with lack of internet here this week. I have the verizon to go but it will only connect for maybe 15 min at a time. and this slowwwwwwwww laptop is driving me crazy too. The wi fi on my ipod isnt working and i cant figure out why...hopefully hubby can get it right or i will call apple when i get home. I am such an addict...its so sad. I havent been able to read blogs but i try to stop by facebook everyday. i like facebook :)

I have more but the internet disconnected 3 times while writing this so i am just going to post it while i can lol

happy new year !!!!

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2008-12-24T19:03:00.003-05:00

Merry Merry everyone!!

I spent most of today shopping!! I am tired, too tired to be depressed lol. I didnt need to shop but hubby did and i tagged along. It wasn't as crazy as i thought it would be.

My daughter is going to be able to spend almost the whole week me next week when i am in Virginia so i am thrilled about that. Not sure about the son, i know he'll be there when i get there but not sure for how long.

I took these sunday night when we went out for our anniversary. I forgot to post about it!! 11 years with hubby! I hope for many many more with him. He is the best, i love him more now than 11 years ago.

Anyway, enjoy the lights and happy holidays!

2008-12-21T10:08:00.003-05:00

Bah Humbug

So i am trying not to be depressed. I have so much in my life, why should i care that i will be alone both christmas eve and christmas day?? I trying to look at the bright side, after a few days with my mother hounding my every step next week i will ready to kill for some alone time lol. Hubby is working nights blech.

Yesterday i had to go back to my vets the first time since that day we had Jeopardy put down. It was hard...so hard. But to make it worse i had to wait to get my flea medication (I hate a fucking flea worse than ANYTHING!! well maybe i hate spiders more) and while I was waiting a family came out carring a large plastic bag large dog sized and they were all crying. I had sit in my van and cry myself for a while i leave. I am getting better but man that was hard lol.

The picture is Jeppy waiting for her dad on day last year, She always wanted to be the first one to greet him

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2008-12-16T07:00:00.002-05:00

Its Jane Austin's Birthday today!!

I love me some Jane Austin, she probably my favorite writer (although there are so many!) She wasnt widely read when she was alive, and in fact didnt use her name until a relative published some of her writings after her death. I wonder if she knows how beloved she is now.

My favorite quote of hers :

"For what do we live, but to make sport for our neighbours, and laugh at them in our turn?"

Truer words have never been written.

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2008-12-14T22:54:00.002-05:00

The Grinch...thats me....

I am trying to be more excited about christmas, i really am. But i miss my dad, i miss the way christmas used to be. I miss my kids and my mom and i wont be able to go see them until the 26th. I was hopping maybe they could postpone christmas for one day (I mean its just ONE frigging day) but my brother and his wife cant, they already made plans. I was mad and hurt at first but i talked to my sister in law and they have a really good reason. they are taking her mother in for a week long visit to giver her sister a break (her mother lives with her sister). So its ok but i am still blue. Hubby is working christmas eve night so that sucks. Its just me and the dogs. I know am feeling a little self pity but its not that bad i guess. Hubby got me an ipod Touch for christmas which i was really wanting but didnt think he would get it for me. LOL this is how the first time I brought up that i wanted one. A commercial for the Ipod touch came on.

Me. I really want want of those its the coolest thing!

Hubby : I really want a 12 inch dick but i am not getting that either.

So needless to say I was so surprised when he got it for me! I love it but i would trade it for christmas with my family.

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2008-12-07T22:36:00.002-05:00

hello is this thing on??

i am back i guess. I gave up on blogging for a while, i couldnt even really say why. I was depressed for a time but then i havent been for a while so thats no excuse. Maybe i just ran out of stuff to say. But when something funny happens i think to myself I want to blog but i didnt. Maybe i am just lazy. OK i am lazy I admit it. I probably have no readers left but i will catch everyone up on whats been going on in Melsville.

I lost 52 lbs...thats a good thing. Bad thing it seems to be stuck and i am not losing any more. But i feel much better, not sure if its the weight or the diabetes but i do feel better most days. Still have days that are full of pain (yesterday was a 2 pain pill day) but things are better.

My work went to a 4 day work week in oct. At first i hated it because i end up working more hours but now i really like it. I feel like i get more accomplished in the longer days and plus i get to sleep more since i dont go in until 9 now. Having fridays off is great!

i wrecked my van avoiding a deer but it wasnt too bad...i was very lucky and hubby fixed it all himself so no insurance or huge repair bills. He is so handy :) But i have issues... mental issues about driving that van now. I know its all in my head but I completely lost control of the vehicle and that scared me. So i am working through that fear lol.

I got new glasses and i can see!!!! I gave up on my contacts and even though i look goofy in glasses i dont care my eyes feel great these days. I dont think I will go back to contacts. I posted a pic of me and my glasses and my new haircut. I was forced to get my hair cut lol my friends ganged up on me. I hated the new hair at first but now its growing on me.

well thats euff for now. Not much happened while i was gone, i really lead such a boring life but i like it that way. I missed my blogger buds :)

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2008-09-17T22:29:00.003-04:00

Its been a week now since we lost Jeopardy and we are both still reeling from it. i have been in a down depressed mood and so has hubby, he is probably worse off than me. i am spoiling my other dogs rotten. Its very strange, we still have 7 dogs but the house is so empty without her. We decided to put her ashes in the bedroom, close to us because she always wanted to be with the us. She always was with us, we are not used to her not being here yet. We are especially spoiling her brother Deuce, its like a part of her is with us still because we have her blood brother but he is not like she was at all. He is more aloof, he could care less where we are unless its dinnertime lol. but sometimes when he looks up a certain way, the expression is hers.

I turned 48 yesterday. Yeah i am alive another year!! go me lol. My kids forgot to call me until today and it hurt my feelings but i had to shake it off, can't stay mad. But man do i have some leverage for guilt feelings later lol

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2008-09-12T18:58:00.004-04:00

Rip my sweet girl...

This is a post that's really hard to write. Wednesday I took Jeopardy to the vet, a friend went with me to pick her up and down since she couldn't jump in the van. (hubby was working a project with no time off) I knew she was bad, and i was prepared for bad news but i was NOT prepared for what i had to do. She was in severe kidney failure, the vet suspected a tumor but there was so much fluid in the xray he really couldn't see one. But it didn't matter, it was a matter of days or maybe weeks at the most. The Canadian made the decision...i couldn't do it. But i did have to be with her , it was very peaceful. Needless to say I am devastated, and hubby is even worse than i am, she was devoted to him and followed him everywhere. He feels awful he wasn't there with her.

Ive said it before but death sucks. I am so not good at dealing with this.

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2008-09-04T06:22:00.005-04:00

I really didnt mean to go this long without posting again. Geez where does the time go??

I feel better about things I guess. I have alot to be grateful for so i am concentrating on those rather than the bad stuff :) And I have more friends in blogland than i have in real life!! Thats cool...thanks guys for all your encouragement!!! you are the best!

I dont have much to say. Lessee...mom is actually wearing her hearing aids, she calls them her ears! Yet last night on the phone she still said "huh" a bunch of times, old habits die hard I guess. She hates not being to drive and get her own groceries. I dont blame her there.

One of my greyhounds is having these dizzy episodes, she's had them for a couple of years but right now she is having one and its been going on for almost a week. I hate seeing her like this!! She might have been a bit better last night but today she is not looking so great. She's 10 now so i worry about every little thing. I posted a cute pic of her, need to take some new ones.

I did get that coffee maker, i ordered it for my birthday :) It is as awesome as i thought. My birthday isnt until next week but i am using it now lol.

I will take some pics of my beading and post them soon. Dont expect too much i am a beginner, there is so much to learn!! I need to post pics of my haircut too as soon as I find a good one.

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2008-08-25T06:24:00.002-04:00

Where's Melbo?

I haven't posted in forever. I think I am giving up on this, I have nothing much to say, nothing exciting ever happens. But then I think i wish I had a diary of my dads after he passed and I think maybe my kids would like to see stuff from their mom after I go but I don't know.

I was really very depressed for a while. I am better now I think. I am afraid of losing my friends, I am afraid of dying. I was depressed about everything except my marriage...that at i feel is rock solid. When I get depressed like that I don't feel like writing or talking or doing anything. But like i said I am better now.

I have taken up beading. I am not very good at it but its fun and something creative. I made necklaces for all my dogs with their names and phone #s on them to start, now I am working on anklets and bracelets. I love buying the beads.

My best friend at work left to go back to school, that fueled alot of my depression. I was afraid we would lose touch and we talked every day, several times a day. She knows my fears and really is making an effort, I hope I can keep her friendship...I don't get along with most people. Also my friend Bec is moving to Atlanta, which is better than some of the other scenarios, at least that is closer that the other places her husband had job offers from.

I got new glasses and they are wonderful! I need to have them adjusted better but for now I am giving up those awful hard contact lenses and going back to wearing glasses all the time. My eyes are thankful. I found these sunglasses than go on over your Rx glasses so I don't have spend another 600$ on sunglasses. My cataracts are growing slow so it might be a few years before they are ready for surgery.

My mom depresses me. I am going to hell over this one. I love my mom, she has done so much for me my whole life but she has become this angry unhappy complainer that will do nothing to make her life better. She is such a downer, complains constantly about everything. She had better spirits when she was in the rehab nursing home. I hate talking to her on the phone and if I don't call every day and talk for at least 40 minutes she gets mad at me. Sometimes I just let her get mad because I just cant deal with her especially after i have worked all day. I feel so guilty for the way i feel. My dad would be so disappointed in me.

I got my haircut and they wouldn't take my hair for cancer patients even though it was 12 inches, it was too gray. That depressed me too lol i cant even grow my hair right!

Well enough bitching and moaning....

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2008-07-26T23:25:00.003-04:00

coolest coffee maker EVER!

our boss at work just got one of these for the office. At first I was not happy, we didnt need a coffee maker, we have so much other stuff we need more...a new microwave for once since the one thats there is like 13 years old and barely runs. But we tried it and I am in LOVE!!! I love this thing so much!!! Its awesome!! We just bought a new coffee maker here at home so i cant get one for here yet but its going to be my next coffeemaker for sure.

My best friend at work and my partner in my department is quitting to go back to school. Great for her, but I am so sad. its gonna suck so bad there without her. only 5 more months left.

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2008-07-22T06:25:00.002-04:00

Henna tattoos kinda suck.

And I do too i guess since I havent posted in a week lol. Anyway here is a pic of the Tattoo. Looks great huh? The issue I have is its gone already. Was supposed to last 45-60 days. It lasted less than 14 days! Maybe I am am too cleanly or something. Anyway, it was a big disappointment.

My blood levels continue to be all screwed up for no apparant reason. So I am back to bloodwork every week again!

My mom is sick of the rehab place and wants to go home but found out that since that they make the people that live alone stay in longer since they wont have help at home. Makes sense but she is disappointed. She says its a great place but she is ready to come home. She is back to complaining, not as bad as before though. I am sure my brother is happy not to have to worry so much about her in there like he does when she is at home.

We had a terrific storm here this week but no tropical despressions came this way.

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2008-07-14T05:58:00.004-04:00

I suck at posting lately...

Dunno what is up with me not posting much but I have been burnt out on blogging...yet at the same time cannot give it up either LOL. So for now I will just post whenever :)

All those pics above are views from our hotel room last weekend. It was such an awesome time but I am so glad to be home and I wanna stay here with no trips for a while!

I was gonna post pics of my henna tattoo but i forgot they are on my camera. I have to upload them lol, I promise I will post them though:) I got a greyhound. They say they last for 45 days but at 2 weeks its really faded already. I like it though. Dunno if I would get another one or not.

My mom has found nothing to complain about the nursing home! She is very complimentary which is awesome for her...it must be a great place. Its all private rooms which is a big plus. She had a bit of a setback when she fell last week so she will probably be in there a bit longer. Good thing she likes it ok. They work those people to death though with the rehab lol. Its a good thing but she is not used to working like that.

The only other thing of note is my coumadin levels have been all over the place so they are adjusting my levels and I have to go in for blood work every week again. Blech. The lady at the front desk doesnt even ask my name anymore, she knows me and thats a big busy office.

Work is work. A new girl starts today. They seem to fire people alot these days.

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2008-07-09T23:07:00.002-04:00

I ain't nothing but tired....

So its been so crazy for me lately. I don't travel often and had 3 out of town trips back to back so I am so behind on everything. I caught up some of blog reading today but got no cleaning or laundry done. My house is not that bad yet but will be soon if I don't stay home and get all my housework done! Today I was off but i had 2 docs appointments and errands (drugstore, groceries ect)

Updates...my mom is a rehab nursing home until she can get back on her feet, they are thinking another week or 2. She wont say if she likes it but I think she does even though they are working her to death. LOL they don't call it rehab for nothing :). She has a much better attitude than she has had since even before dad died so I am thinking this is a good thing. She goes to the dining room for all her meals so I know she is not lonely like she was before.

My engagement ring broke while I was on vacation and I had to pick a new setting, it makes me sad because this ring means so much to me. They are going to try to match it as close as they can.

My work is very strange. My boss has been in a horrible mood and I am so paranoid I think she just hates me now. Who knows, she claims she is not moody but she is.

I got a henna tattoo! I just love it. Wish I could get a real one. I'll post a pic tomorrow.

anyway that's a pretty boring update on things meaningless LOL. The pic was from last month before mom was in the hospital its mom me and my kids.

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2008-07-07T06:05:00.002-04:00

There's no place like home....

I am home and I am tired! All I will says is I will never travel on a holiday weekend again, the traffic yesterday was the worse I ever been in! Where did all that humanity come from????

I have to go to work today, I wish I had taken an extra day. Blech.

I did have a wonderful time except when my engagement broke in 2 pieces. More on all that later.

My mom is a rehab facility for 2 weeks, she has been going to the dining hall for all her meals so she isnt lonely LOL. I dont think she hates it there but she wants to get home. She knows she has to work hard though.

Ok thats a short version...more later.

2008-07-02T10:54:00.003-04:00

This is were I am right now. I am not taking my laptop so I'll see you all next week!

My mom is slowly getting better, they are releasing her to a rehab nursing home before she can go home. I think she will love it there, its a brand new place and there will be lots of people so she wont be lonely.

Happy 4th and a big thank you to all our troops

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2008-06-30T21:22:00.002-04:00

My mom is getting better, now she doesn't think she is going to die tomorrow LOL. They finally diagnosed her with something called msra. its very contagious. Its one of those "super bugs" that is resistant to regular antibiotics. They have her on something and she is getting better so that's good.

What I don't understand is why I am still depressed. I am in a low mood and I don't know why, there is no reason for me to be depressed. I am supposed to go to the beach wends and I almost don't want to go. I just want to stay at home and hibernate. I am going to make myself go though, I know I will regret it if I don't and I wont get this opportunity again. I wish my hubby was coming but I am going with my co worker (NOT the co worker that threatened to kill me LOL) and her 4 (yes 4!!) kids. I plan on getting lost of pics to share :)

I went to Bec's house this past weekend and left my handicapped tag in her car. So I am really bummed about going to the beach without it but its my own fault so I just need to suck it up.

The pic is Amos, mom's kitty she gave back when she went in the hospital. The people had regretted giving him away and missed him terribly so its a good ending for the kitten but I will miss him...he was so cute and really good too.

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2008-06-26T06:13:00.002-04:00

Mom

Its been another bad week with my mom. I am no longer there and am grateful I don't have to deal with all this but i also feel ashamed and guilty for feeling that way. I think my mom just wants to die. She is refusing to eat and my brother has been taking her back and forth to the ER and the doc and finally yesterday they decided to admit her. He has been trying to get her to eat and she was screaming at him "its my body I'll eat when i want to" LOL I can just hear her now. My poor brother doesn't know what to do. At this point I wonder if her mind is as gone as we think it is or if she just has given up and is trying to kill herself? Anyway, bear with me for the lack of posts for now.

I am supposed to go to Myrtle beach next week but i am not sure now if I will be able to go.

I took this picture last week when I was there, she looks happy here.

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2008-06-21T07:48:00.003-04:00

Dear George:

I have been unfaithful. There is no excuse for my behavior but in my defense I was totally unconscious when I had an erotic dream about Harrison Ford. Really, I don't know where he came from but my subconscious really likes Mr Jones. Hopefully this was just a one time thing and I can return our relationship back to where it once was. I am so sorry, I never meant to hurt you. If it makes you feel any better you are the only one I wanna stalk but am too lazy to do so.

Later,
Mel
Picture by the wonderful Sans :)

2008-06-18T23:00:00.002-04:00

Take a sad song and make it better...

Its somewhat better today, thanks for all your thoughts and well wishes. I think if I didn't stay with her 24/7 when i visit it wouldn't be quite as bad, breaks help. Today was non stop, taking her to the doc and then to PT, then to wallyworld to transfer her medicines there. My sister in law decided mom should switch to wallyworld since they have some meds that are 4$ and it would save mom money. My mom has no money, her monthly pittance from medicare is just not enough for her and she was self employed so she has no retirement. Dad's retirement was given to her in a lump sum when he died but it was not full and it was small, and it is gone. She has food and shelter and is not destitute but we are trying to cut her costs as much as we can.

She got a new kitten, a cutie she named Amos. He is so adorable! Pictures to come when i get home.

Speaking of going home, i am going home tomorrow. I had planned to stay until Friday but my blood work last week for my coumadin levels was all whacked out for some reason. They increased my dosage and they needed new levels this week so that's why i am going back early. Fine with me, I am ready to get home.

I am so sad about Tim Russert, he made politics enjoyable if thats possible.

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2008-06-17T22:44:00.002-04:00

Awfulness...

Sorry its been so long since i posted. Things just went from bad to worse lately. I am in Virginia now with my mom for my visit, which has turned into a take my mom to the doctor every single day visit. I cannot explain in any words how she is right now. She is very confused about everything yet so stubborn at the same time. She is the worst hypochondriac ever...just like the little boy that cried wolf when there really is something wrong with her no one will believe her. She got me up at 6 am Saturday to take her to the urgent care place when the opened, said i had to get ready right away. She said she had blood clots in her leg. I knew she didn't have clots, since I have had them i know the symptoms. Anyway after getting there and they were closed the doc was pretty confused as to mom was there when they finally opened.

That's only part of the fun. It has been awful. My kids came and visited, thankfully but dealing with my mom is pretty stressful. I don't know how my brother does it all the time.

I hate myself for not handling this better. I am doing the best i can but this is hard. I think if I recognized this old lady as my mom it would be better but this person she is now is no one I know. Its like a whole different person. And I am a horrible person for feeling the way i do. She doesn't know how I feel, how awful this is for me though. Thank goodness for that.

Anyway more soon. Will try not to whine as much.
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2008-06-07T18:21:00.005-04:00

Are you hot mama...you sure look that way to me...

OMG is it ever freaking hot already. I went out early this morning to run errands before it got too hot and even early it was 91 degrees. One temperature thingy said 101. Its seriously too early for this. My body just cannot handle this kind of heat since I had heart failure, so I get very little done when its this hot. Even if I am in the AC it still effects me some.

Enough whining. Here are some pics I took when hubby and i went for a bike ride last week. Here is the rural area we live around.
Hale bales, we pass alot of these. ALOT of fields of corn and other stuff. And cows, lots of cows!! Its hard to take pics on the back on the bike so I didnt get any good cow pics but trust me they are everywhere!

A lovely abandoned trailer. There are alot of abandoned buildings here that just sit. Where I am from in Virginia, nothing that is abandoned can just sit and rot like this. They fine the owners in Virginia for not demolishing buildings like this.

We stopped by the lake to rest for a while. I had never been to this lake before but its much nicer than some of the others. Its kinda blurry, its a cell phone pic but you can see momma and baby ducks! awww.

I am going to visit my mom for a week next weekend. I had said I wanted to bring Raven, my old chihuahua too. Raven used to always go with us but when Dad was alive it was an issue because my dad hated dogs so we stopped taking her. Mom has mentioned she misses her so I decided to take her. I told mom and she asked me NOT to bring her. No biggie, less hassle for me but now she is saying to bring her. MY mom changes her mind like the wind, it will drive you crazy. She will drive me crazy, you have NO idea.

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2008-06-04T11:18:00.003-04:00

I wanna be the girl with the most cake...

I really want to buy myself a sirius Stilleto. I want one bad. I am trying to resist. I am trying to be good. Then I rationalize the possible purchase, I work hard, hubby has more tools than any human should ever have ect. I have a feeling here that sirius will win this battle. Its ridiculous really, I don't need this! But I want.

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2008-06-01T11:11:00.003-04:00

I'm in shock...My daughter called me at work on Friday to tell me she got engaged Thursday night. My 20 year old daughter is engaged, i am trying to wrap my head around this new status. I will be an in law. OMG.

My husband absolutely despises this guy, actually no one really likes him, she hasnt even told her dad yet because her dad hates him too. So this should be interesting. Me, i guess he is ok, I don't really know him that well. I do know he has broken her heart not once but twice.

He gave her his grandmothers ring, its very pretty. I am impressed that its a family heirloom so hopefully he is not going to screw around on her this time and is fully committed.

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2008-05-30T06:15:00.002-04:00

Going to see this today!!!I love this series, I love the bond between these women even if its just fictional. My girlfriends are few and far between (because I dont make friends easy and also i wont put up with any bullshit drama) and they mean so much to me. Last week one of my best friends was a cruise and i couldnt call or text her...it was awful!!! But she is back and going to the movie with me today :):)

I think my blog is dying, no one visits anymore. I am just boring I guess. I like being boring though.

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2008-05-28T23:36:00.005-04:00

we'll all float on ok....

my firstborn child left last week and its back to the routine of not hearing from her. To be fair she is working alot of hours, they require the managers to work from open to close at least twice a week. I was against her working there again this year as its a teenybopper job but she is learning alot about management and is getting good ethic experience.

Really tired just wanted to post more pictures from her visit. Yes that me in the yellow. blah.

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2008-05-27T06:11:00.003-04:00

Where did it go???

Of course I am talking about my holiday weekend. What happened and how can be Tuesday already??

I had a great day out yesterday, the Canadian was off and we went riding the Goldwing in the mountains with some friends then went to their house for a cookout. The weather was perfect.
Our dogs however were mad at us, and left a trail of stuffing from one of their toys all over the living room. They punish us when we are gone all day, luckily they destroyed their own stuff not mine. I wanted to take a picture of the mess but hubby cleaned it before I even got to my camera.

I thought about my dad quite a bit all weekend, not really sure why other than it was memorial day and he was a korean Vet. I wish I could say I am better about dealing with him being gone and somedays I am ok. But some days like yesterday I am quite devastated all over again,

Anyway its back to work today. booo.

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2008-05-25T16:10:00.008-04:00

Best visit ever!

So my daughter actually did show up last week and we had such a blast!! Well, I did lol I don't know about them. She came with a girlfriend so she wouldn't have to drive the whole 14 hours herself. The dogs LOVE Stuffgirl and loved having company and are all sad and mopey now they are gone. Me too in a way.

We did girl stuff, pedicures and shopping the first day. They took me to Hot Topic and I can honestly say I have never felt older than in that store! Stuffgirl bought me a sparkly wallet I admired in there though for a late moms day present. We went to the mineral water park where she used to hang out when she lived here. We went to a new antique shop that opened up in town (junk shop is more like it). We ate out alot, i only cooked one night. Oh, I tried Panera Bread's broccoli and cheese soup and i want MORE! Awesome stuff.

The last day we went to downtown Greenville and walked and shopped at Mast General store and then to the Reedy river falls park which is so awesome, we need to go there more. Here are some pics.
Here they are at the mineral springs park. Yes they are both 20 not 10!

She met up with an old boyfriend one day.

He even braved the dogs to come in and visit :)

Here they are all dolled up to go out to a pub and meet some other old friends.

At the falls, she is taking a picture of me taking a picture of her lol.

More pics (lots more later....)

In other news i went to the dentist on Wednesday and got a cleaning and a good report, no problems no cavities. But then Friday morning i bit down on my breakfast bacon and broke my back tooth. Luckily they worked me in, I had broken the entire side of that tooth off. It was where an old silver filling from 30 years ago had put so much pressure it just broke. He did a quick fix and now I have to have a crown. I hate dental work!

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2008-05-17T09:06:00.005-04:00

I am no fashion expert BUT...

I think Jenna's Bush's wedding dress looks like an old chenille bedspread. I know it costs thousands and its an Oscar de laurenta (however you spell that) but its just fugly. Maybe it looked better in person than in the pics, my invite must have gotten lost in the mail.

Mariah Carey, the queen of tacky revealing clothes looks fantastic in her wedding dress. Sure Mariah can pull off almost any look with her body but her dress was understated and breathtaking. Dare I even say she looked Classy for a change?? People mag must have paid a bunch for the wedding pics cuz this is the only one I could find. My invite didn't come for her wedding either. Whats up with my mail???

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2008-05-15T22:31:00.002-04:00

Randomness....

I have no idea for a cohesive post so you get random thoughts tonight. In bullets even what more could anyone want?

I lost 3 more lbs.
My clothes are way too big now but i refuse to buy new clothes, it will jinx the whole thing.
Hubby is off of nightshift for at least 2 weeks yay!!
I dont know why I love it when he is here since he spends most of his time in the "man cave" he made in the basement. Really my testerone levels go up every time I venture down there.
Stuffgirl still says she is coming next week!! I am giddy with excitement, I miss that brat so much. The son is not coming and stammered out all kinds of excuses but really i am just so happy to have one my kids for a week its all ok.
I am going to see them and mom next month, mom is giddy with excitement that i am coming too.
I am quickly becoming addicted to twitter.
deuce had a vet appointment for a growth on his eyelid but hubby slept through it.
I am very disappointed in the new black Jewels novel but i keep reading.
no sickingly cute greyhound pics as blogger wont let me post a pic.

2008-05-12T20:50:00.007-04:00

Mothers day 2008

I had a great day yesterday, I was lucky that hubby was off and we went out to breakfast and then we went to the South Carolina Botanical Gardens and strolled around for a while. I have been wanting to go there for so long but with my mobility issues I didnt know if would be able to walk it, but they have lots of benches and places to rest so I was able to walk for a while without my walker. It was chilly and drizzling but it was still so pretty and peaceful.

This is looking into the pond, you can a HUGE koy and a turtle and I love the reflections in this pic.

If you look close you can see the Canadian in there. I don't know what they call this arched walkway but wouldn't it be pretty for a wedding?? LOL.

Some of the plants along the path. We didn't make it to the flower gardens, will go there next time. We plan to go more often now that we know what its like.

Both my kids called me yesterday and yes stuff girl is still planning on coming next week! She had hoped to come Sunday but there is a mandatory thing at KD (Kings Dominion) where she is a manager so she is coming on Monday now. Suits me ok, I have to work Monday but am taking Tuesday-Thursday off.

Speaking of moms, my mom is so pitiful. I never in life thought she would be so sad so depressed. The doctor is starting her on lexipro, I hope it helps. She is so lonely. I wish she had made more friends but her whole life was dad and with him gone she is just going downhill. I feel so helpless being so far away. I am going up there for a week in June, she is really looking forward to it

Thats all from here, Hope every mom had a great day yesterday!

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2008-05-10T21:00:00.002-04:00

Snowbirds!

I always try to remember to take my camera when hubby and I go bike riding, but I don't always remember. I am so glad I did remember this past week though to get this shot. I found out they were the Snowbirds, the Canadian Forces precision flying team. They were awesome!! When they first flew over us I thought something was wrong with the bike they were so loud! We stopped at a parking lot and watched for a while. Thats what is so much fun about little unexpected trips, you never know what you will see.

I have lost weight in my fingers!!! Last year I took my rings in and them made bigger, and now with my weight loss They are way too big!! I mean really, who loses and gains weight in their fingers? Maybe the high blood sugar was making them swell and now thats under control they are back to normal. I don't know whether to have them cut smaller or wait and see what my freaky fingers will do next but I don't wanna lose my wedding rings!

I am really enjoying twitter! Since I cant blog at work and most work days I am too tired to do alot of visiting I keep up with peeps through texting.

Stuffgirl still says she is coming although she may have to get here on Monday instead of Sunday. I'll take any time I can get with her. I plan on lots of mother daughter time :):):)

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2008-05-08T06:14:00.002-04:00

see more dog pictures

No title today, I'm blocked or something LOL

Went the the ear nose and throat doc yesterday for my dizzy spells. He says its "positional" vertigo, which makes sense because I move my head a certain way to bring on the spells. He gave me exercises to try (my bad I haven't yet lo) and a cortisone shot. He feels like its allergies bringing on the pressure in my inner ear and if so the shot will help. Too soon to see but my dizziness wasn't as bad last night.

And just to make my allergies worse i talked hubby into riding the bike yesterday, it was gorgeous here and we hadn't had any time to ride with him working so much. Plus, I never see him in the summer, he is always in his "man cave" aka the basement with all his tools and woodworking machines. He has made 2 more shelves. I really want him to get the trash compactor installed just because its so big and its sitting in front of the trash can now so I have no where to put trash where dogs cant get to it.

stuffgirl still is saying she is coming :) woohooo. she has a week to back out still though. Like I said I will believe it when she gets here. Gotta get in and work on her room, its a junk room and a real mess right now.

No reason for that pic i just thought it was adorable!

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2008-05-02T22:26:00.003-04:00

Everything old is new again

Well as you can see I reverted back to my old template. I know I know I am so challanged in this area! I didn't like the choices they have, I did find template I really love but couldn't get it to work. I am sure its just me LOL

I had to drive around running errands today and I passed several temperature signs and they were all different!! This disturbs me for some reason. One said 79, one said 80 one said 84. When I got home weather bug said it was 84. I am a stickler for the correct time and temp and I dont want to know a range of temps it might be I want the actual temp! Its a bit obsessive huh?

Hubby made a shelf for the new TV will post pictures later. Now you get pics of my dogs again :) As you can see there is no room for me on that couch. Its truly a dogs life at my house!

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2008-04-30T23:08:00.004-04:00

and now for something completely different...

As you can see I changed my blog. I have alot more i would like to do it. Where can i find the prettier layouts anyone??? I know they have them but could just find the boring ones.

Hubby worked 2 nights of overtime this week and then his 4 night shift is coming up. Needless to say I haven't been thrilled with him gone. I really like him home at nights.

i had to go to the doc today and i have a nasty bacterial infection. More drugs LOL. I thought i would post a picture of my weeks worth of pills all laid out in my organizer. I really like my pill organizer, at first it would take me an hour to put the pills in the right spots but now I have it down to a science lol. go me! haha.

I added twitter and I am on there as Melsmeaningless, if you have twitter well then please twitter me! I am hooked I can update from phone. How cool is technology??

I love my new TV in the bedroom!! its huge, I feel like my bedroom should be on an episode of Cribs! The trash compactor is here not not installed yet. Its way bigger than I thought it would be.

I am looking for that widget for weather that has the girl wearing different outfits according to the local weather. Anyone know what that is called??

Thats all for updates...see I am trying to be better at posting but I am still boring as hell!

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2008-04-28T06:06:00.003-04:00

I know I've been a real bad girl...

Just haven't been blogging much, I really don't have alot to say but I can catch up up on what is going on in Mel land.

Jeopardy had her dental, she lost 2 teeth and the vet fussed at us for letting it get so bad. They said 2 of teeth just desentergrated...it was that bad. So I feel like the worst pet owner ever but honestly I had no idea how bad they were! As soon as we can set it up her brother deuce needs one now too. I hope his isn't as expensive but it probably will be.

Work has been ok I guess. I am so ready to stay home if I feel awful and not have to push myself to get to work and then struggle to make it through the day every day.

The new washer/dryer has gotten me in a spring cleaning bug and i am cleaning and reorganizing stuff. I just started on the bedroom and working a little bit every day I am off. I have it about 1/2 done. Can only work for a short time and then rest alot LOL so its slow going.

Hubby bought me a new TV to go in the bedroom and its really big, 47 inches and i may never wanna get out of bed now LOL!!! He also bought a trash compactor. He says I will love it, I've never even thought about getting one. He has to pick it up tomorrow, I bought bags for it yesterday and we will see if its all that and a bag of chips haha!

Stuffgirl still claims she is coming to visit next month!! I cant wait.

Thats about all for now.
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2008-04-23T16:26:00.004-04:00

Long nets of white cloud my memory....

I have been thinking alot about the past. I was cleaning my closet (my new washer/dryer got me in a cleaning and reorganizing mode) and found some old pictures. Its almost like I am different person, i guess everyone changes and evolves. Also I found clothes and shoes that I have no memory of ever owning LOL. Some hideous stuff, some cute stuff. I should clean out more often!

Joe Cool tagged me with a meme, you have to write a 6 word memoir. This is hard!!! But here it is:

Wife, mother, daughter, dog lover, klutz.

Yup that pretty well sums me up LOL.

I lost 5 more lbs and now I dont have 3 chins anymore so i took a picture to commerate the occasion :)

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2008-04-21T06:14:00.002-04:00

I'm so dizzy...my head is spinning...

Yes still have some vertigo issues here. I think its my sinuses, or allergies. So many other bloggers have said they have this too, i am thinking it might be allergies. Its better, but worse when i get up in the mornings. Its not so bad I cant function but sill annoying and usually has a headache to go along with it.

My new washer/dryer are hooked up and yesterday I did lots of laundry, including bed comforters and dog beds. I am a laundry doing fool. I could do laundry for a living really, its one chore I dont mind at all !! Poor hubby had to take out part of a wall and redo the light switch it get them to fit but he did it all in one day. I am thrilled to be able to do laundry again. I used the dryer on the touch up cycle to freshen up my outfit for today LOL.

The big news is Stuffgirl says she is coming to visit next month!!! I am so excited but i am trying not to be because frankly i will believe it when I see her here.

Jeopardy is feeling way better on the antibotics, i hate now she has to have to have the dental. Its always a worry when greyhounds have to put under for any reason. She is our first greyhound, she started our love and obesession with greyhounds and will always be so special to us.

Gotta get ready for work. *%$)% Mondays!!

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2008-04-17T16:25:00.002-04:00

So long and thanks for all the fish

I'm not really saying goodbye but I love this line, Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy is one of my favs! DONT PANIC!

I went to the appliance place and they couldn't have been nicer, I got the difference of what I paid vs the new sale price and a refund on the dryer rack. We have been loyal customers of HH Gregg for a while, they have always done right by us. Hubby is working on getting it all installed today but I don't know how much longer it will be. I am hoping by the weekend.

Been fighting vertigo today, not sure what caused this episode but I it feels like a hangover almost and thats not fair I haven't drank in years!

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2008-04-16T09:50:00.003-04:00

'Cuz at night the sun in retreat made the skyline look like crooked teeth...'

our baby Jeopardy has a bad toothache, her teeth are bad bad bad. We feel awful, we have neglected her teeth. she is not cooperative at all about us brushing them so we don't brush them. We are terrible pet owners!! I did use some stuff that you put in their water that helps with their teeth but i ran out a few months ago. When we got her her teeth were bad already, dogs from the track sometimes have bad teeth but its more a problem with the breed, their small mouths contribute to bad teeth. Her brother Duece had dental 2 years ago and his teeth are bad too. Anyway, she is scheduled for a cleaning/extraction or whatever next week and I have to go to the vet today to get antibiotics and soft food for her. The vet we use is over an hour away!!! We need to get one closer but hubby really likes this vet.

I also have go to the appliance store, the washer they sold us for $699 Sunday is on sale today for $593!!!!!!!!!!! so I am off to get the difference. also the dyer rack he sold us doesn't fit so I have to take that back too. Grrr.

The lyrics are from Death Cab for Cutie...i am obessessed with thier music right now.

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2008-04-14T06:17:00.002-04:00

Just another manic Monday....

Well we bought a washer and dryer yesterday. they are being delivered today woohooo! Have to wait for Hubby to do a few things before its hooked up. The laundry is piled up, you would not believe it, like 3 full overflowing tall laundry baskets! I told him i would take over the laundry chores when they are upstairs so I guess he is holding off until we get them in. I would rather almost, the old machine is ripping small little holes in stuff!!! dunno why it is doing that. Anyway, they are front loaders with no agitator so it will be better for the clothes. We got the Whirlpool Duet sport (LOL sport how funny!!) I had to buy the special detergent and I got a rack for the dryer for tennis shoes and stuff. Now I can wash The Canadian's hats. Anyway, I am excited!! But dunno how long before he gets them installed, he has to do some stuff, not sure what.

The salesman kept calling Hubby "Jim" and we were dying, cracking up looking for "jim". Hubby's given name is James but he goes my his middle name and he has NEVER been called "jim" The salesman said they will call Jim today to deliver! it was so funny, we both laughed almost all the way home. The guy was nice, very nice I felt bad laughing at him but he must make commission so I dont feel too bad.

Its cold here again, freaking coldest April ever.

Oh and its monday. woofreakingwoooo.

Later

see more crazy cat pics

2008-04-11T21:46:00.003-04:00

666

This is my 666th post. Triple 6's have always been pretty lucky me even though most people don't like that # I do. My home phone ends in 666, hubby's b day is 7/6/66 and there are 3 666s in my debit card. I don't know what all this means though :)

Today I finally got to go see Leather heads, I have been waiting and waiting for this film to come out since I got to see some of it being filmed. It was pretty good. I wasn't super crazy about Renee Z in the beginning of it but she got better. I am always crazy about George Clooney. Jim from the office was very lovable in it. I liked it. OH and it only cost us $4 to see it! I think it was a special showing for senior citizens the movie theater was packed with old people! The lady in front of me had on some estee lauder old lady perfume and it was making me gag. Why do some people drown themselves in perfume? OH one more thing, I went with the coworker that wanted to beat me with a baseball bat and another coworker. Its strange doing stuff with her after that.

Its field trip Friday so I am posting a picture of one of my dogwood trees. Its in full boom right now. Dogwoods are my favorite but they never bloom long enough.

later

2008-04-09T09:17:00.003-04:00

This is me, or as close to me as I can get without spending anything on this. Also this is supposed to be a plus sized body shape?? Well, maybe with now since the weight loss...maybe. Anyway it kinda looks like me sorta.

We finally got our taxes done this week (I know lets wait to the last minute huh???) Now I get to start looking at new washer/dryers! I am pretty excited about this, and about getting some bills paid off. Hubby and both claim the minimum so we hopefully wont owe and usually end up getting a good size refund. I would rather do it this way, I would freak out if I owed big taxes. I just wish our income allowed us to save more, but we squeak by every paycheck with nothing left. I am assuming we are doing something wrong but we dont live an extravagant lifestyle. We are just Americans getting by. I dont know about you but the extra money we are getting from the Governmemt in May will not make up for the high price of gas and groceries.

Just some ranting, I havent had anything exciting to blog about.

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2008-04-06T19:11:00.003-04:00

One is the loneliest number....

Hubby's been on nights, thank goodness its over, I hate hate hate him not being here at night. He LOVES working nights and makes more $ on nights but I don't care I just hate it. Luckily I have my dogs to keep me company. Night before last we had some awful storms here. I was kinda scared a couple of times, there were tornado watches and they say one sounds like a train and it sounded pretty bad. I know there is nothing hubby can do when he is here but I wished he was here. We were texting the whole storm so at least I had that. I had 3 dogs that were terrified. Star and Jazzy got up under the desk trying to hide and finally fell asleep, they were exhausted from pacing and shivering. Arent they cute??

Still not much going on here. I was going to go see Leatherheads this weekend but my co workers are all going friday this week and wanted me to wait and go with them.

Back to work tomorrow now that Hubby is off. Blech.

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2008-04-02T21:48:00.003-04:00

Catch a falling star and put in your pocket...

Hubby and I went for a bike ride late last night (ok now for me late is after 9 pm ok?? I am SO not a late night person) and it was gorgeous, no clouds and you could see all the stars. Then I saw a falling star, he saw it too! It was so awesome! I have seen a meteor shower but never a falling star like that. Hubby has seen lots of them, I guess cuz he grew up in the country in Canada and the sky seems so much larger in Canada. I am not kidding, the sky seems larger to me there. The Canadian says its because they don't have trees so close to the roads there like here. I dunno, but I feel like seeing this Star last night was a good sign for me. I didn't take my camera so I snagged a pic from the net but this is pretty close to what it looked like last night.

Another good thing, I am getting a new washer and dryer!! Yes my life is pretty boring to get excited about appliances LOL. But I am! I cant wait to go pick them out. And Hubby agreed to put them upstairs and we will leave the set we have in the basement for his work clothes and shop rags and stuff. We have to wait for the tax refund but that takes almost no time these days/

We went riding the Gold wing again today running errands and I am just exhausted tonight. LOL Fresh air seems to wear me out! It was a lovely day high in the upper 70s. Back to work and for me and hubby tomorrow boo.

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2008-04-01T06:04:00.003-04:00

Dont you forget about me....

I havent posted much lately but there really has not been anything going on. And I have been feeling kinda Blah. I am tired of working, tired of being Broke, tired of Hubby working shifts, Tired of my kids (neither one called me on Easter Sunday). Just tired. Thats about it. Hopefully I will get out of this funk soon and I wont lose too many readers.

I tried to find a cute april fools graphic but I saw nothing that appealed to me so you get Melvin today. This is the best picture I have of my Melvin but I was vacuuming and you can see the cord on the picture.

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2008-03-28T22:38:00.003-04:00

Fish Heads Fish Heads, roly poly Fish heads....

That crazy song has been stuck in my head all week!

No field trip today but I thought I would share a picture of the fruit salad I made with dinner tonight. Hubby and I LOVE fruit and its almost gone LOL with just us two eating it. I made a quiche too.

I had my yearly visit with my Cardiologist this week. I think I confound him really. My EF is way up there in normal range now and 4 years ago it was 20%. He really thought I would go the other way and get worse so while my good numbers thrill me, he quickly reminds me that I am not cured or healed and it will never be healed with all the scar tissue in my heart and not to get overly confident. He was really not happy about the diabetes diagnosis on top of this. BUT my bloodwork showed 77 fasting blood sugar and I am keeping good control on that. But I am happy with things, I do not EVER want to go thru Heart Failure again, its not fun at all.

I also had to go to the family doc today, the kidney infection from 2 weeks never really got better so she changed my antibiotic. Hopefully this will kick it out this time!

I know this is boring, all my medical stuff but its pretty much my life right now. Blech. Luckily the Lupus and Neuropathy have kept a low profile this week.

I lost 2 more lbs, total loss is 39 lbs now. This may be TMI but my underwear is really sagging on me LOL I guess I need to go buy some more.

My daughter is back with Long Haired guy, the one that broke her heart last year and she was almost suicidal over the breakup. So I am not thrilled with this. I am not saying alot of negative things, because she will clam up and not talk to me if I do, and also its her life, her decisions. It just hurts me so bad to see her hurting so bad. He BETTER treat her right this time. He has ditched her twice before, 3 strikes and he is OUT.

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2008-03-26T15:16:00.003-04:00

Its SUPER ME ME!

I was tagged by Superwoman, who really is super!

4 Jobs I have had:
Optometrist assistant
Receptionist
Medical assistant
Medical Insurance billing

4 movies I watch over and over
Lost in Translation
Dirty Dancing
Pride and Prejudice
Sleepless in Seattle
Grease

4 Places I have lived:
Chester Virginia,
Richmond Virginia
Radford Virgina
Redneck Hell South Carolina

4 TV shows I watch
Samantha Who
Project Runway
Top Chef
Lost
(I have many many others)

4 Places I have been
Jeykill Island Ga
Brockville, Ontario
Nassau, Bahamas
Gatlinburg Tn

4 People who email me regularly
Janice
Misty
Mike
George Clonney (I can dream cant i??)

4 Favorite things to eat (in no particular order)
Seafood
italian
My hubbys meatloaf
M&M cookies

4 Places I would rather be
Anywhere with my Hubby
Riding the goldwing
At the beach
Virginia

4 Things I look forward to this year
Quitting work ( this may be 2009)
The sex in the City movie
The leatherheads premier !!
painfree days

4 People to tag
Bill the cat
Opus
Funky winkerbean
George Clooney ( Call me George! Anytime...really :)

2008-03-24T05:48:00.003-04:00

see more crazy cat pics

Whenever Monday comes you can find me crying all the time.....

Geez I hate mondays. I have always hated mondays and I will hate them until I retire and even then I may STILL hate them.

In other newz, the feed store was out of the cheaper dog food we buy for the dogs. When I say cheaper, its still not that cheap because Greyhounds can have some tender tummies so they cant eat ole Roy or anything. (I have always been suspicious that Ole Roy was the major ingredient in that food LOL) But anyway, had to buy the $20 a bag food instead of the $16 a bag food. But now I have 2 dogs on a hunger strike in protest, they don't LIKE the expensive stuff!!!! I really feel for them as all I can afford this week is the dollar menu. I blame Dubya. For everything.

4000 dead....my heart grieves.

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2008-03-23T10:14:00.000-04:00

Happy Easter to my Peeps!

2008-03-21T14:50:00.007-04:00

Friday Field Trip

Finally posting pictures from my trip to Jeykll Island. I didnt get a chance to get out and see alot since we were vending but I did get a few pics.

The vendor Booth where I spent most of my time
This is Molly and Thumper, our roomates for the weekend :)
The view outside the porch of the Villa we were in. The other side of the wall is the ocean.
Just some pics of the vendors area, busy busy!
Bec working away on her embroidery machine.They had a costume contest. Anyone recognize this cartoon character??
The beach, the sun came out! It was gorgeous but cold!
Low Tide, I was able to walk out onto the rocks to get this

10 week old Greyhound Puppy! There is not much that is cuter than a greyhound puppy. Her mama somehow broke her leg, probably rolled over on her, I am not sure.

Molly and Thumper made some friends walking on the beach.

And finally here we all are!

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2008-03-19T20:49:00.002-04:00

I feel stupid...and contagious....

I lost my bookmarks again. I was having serious computer issues for a while, it kept shutting down and telling me it was doing a memory dump!!! ack!!!!!! Anyway hubby decided to put linux on my computer, he runs it and really likes it, he says its better than windows. And it works great, I do really like it BUT I lost my bookmarks again, the ones he used from the backup was from 2 years ago when I first started blogging. So I have been spending a little time each night finding my blog buddies and bookmarking them again. I have not gotten close to adding everyone back on yet BUT I have a 3 day weekend this weekend and I plan to finish adding people, THEN I can start my usual daily visits. Also I joined a league to play in pogo and I have been spending alot of time playing in tournaments. Its a blast and everyone is SO nice.

Today I had to go to the hospital to get some yearly tests for my cardiologist. I had blood work and my echocardiogram. I have a conversation the lab gal was having.

Lab Gal : Felicia was that Glenn's momma that just left?
Felicia : Yeah, do you know how Glenn is doing?
Lab Gal : No, I haven't stuck him recently.

For some reason this struck me as hilarious so I was laughing hysterically, and then she started laughing too and I was luckily she was able to get my blood the first time we were laughing so hard.

I hope to get back around to everyone soon! I need a good place to store my bookmarks, I cant figure out how to add them here, Lynda did all that for me. Any advice on what works well for you?

No pictures today, I have to ask hubby how I post them here, I cant seem to figure it out yet on Linux.

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2008-03-16T23:14:00.002-04:00

I don't wanna work...wanna bang on the drums all day.

Although for me it would be bang on a keyboard all day since I am addicted to the freaking internet!

I think they decided not to cut our insurance but cut benefits instead. Thats a relief but due to other things I have been thinking more and more about going in another direction. Hubby is with me and it will be hard but I think its time. More on this later.

I have been a bad blogger! Nothing exciting here this weekend. Yesterday I went to see The Other Boylen girl, I really enjoyed it but I don't think its a great film but a pretty good one. I love period films. I did read the book but I must have forgotten so much cuz I didn't recognize some parts. Anyway, today hubby was off, his one day off in a while. He had to go look at someone's computer and I wanted to go riding the wing so we both went. It was a bit too chilly to ride here but I still enjoyed it, spring is really on its way here!

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2008-03-13T20:36:00.003-04:00

More junk in her trunk than a Honda...

I thought more people would get the SNL thing from last post. Those were the funniest SNLs, the first couple of seasons.

I had to go to the Doc yesterday to get my coumadin labs drawn and I asked to see the doctor too since my back was killing me. Yup, just as I suspected I have another kidney infection. I am really getting tired of these. they hurt like crazy. But I did have good news...I have lost 11 more lbs bringing my total lost since last June to 36 lbs!!!!!!
Horray ME!!! woohoooo. I wish I could tell it more but I am wearing jeans I havent worn in about 2 years.

The thing at work...I may be losing my insurance, to cut costs the management is making cuts in some things and it looks like they may go with this. It sucks for me. I am the definition of prexisting conditions! I am on hubbys too, but his wont cover the hospital that I seem to frequent. I am not sure what I am going to do, for now I will conintue plugging away. Seriously I am thinking of quitting if they drop the insurance and reapply for disability. I am just not sure.

on a happier note the pic is all us gals on the beach last weekend. I miss the beach already!! Thats me in the pink.

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2008-03-12T17:56:00.004-04:00

And the little children keep coming....

For those of us keeping score, Angelina Jolie is STILL NOT pregnant.

On a related note, Generalissimo Fransisco Franco is Still dead.

If you remember that, you are as old as me :)

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2008-03-11T05:45:00.004-04:00

Things they do look awfully c-c-cold.....

For some reason I am have been a kick of doing song lyrics for my intro, I stole the idea from JQ but I am not creative enough to keep it up. For now I like it though :)

I have been a bad bad blogger I know. I have had many computer issues since I have been home, and I am NOT happy about it. I asked Hubby to take a look at it but since he works on computers all day long for paying customers I am last on his list grrrr. But I get whiny and bitchy without my net, I truly think I am addicted. Seriously, without it I almost have cold sweats LOL. I have my laptop but until I get my links and all my stuff on there its pretty frustrating to use.

My trip was alot of fun, but exhausting! I did more than I am used to doing, its good for me but it drains me. I am going to save most of the pictures for field trip Friday but I did post the first ocean shot I took. It was pouring rain when I took this, and it wasn't too cold yet, just really wet. When the rain cleared the winds and the cold started. SO cold!!!!!!! The power went off at a hotel Friday night for a few hours from the winds, but they got it back quicker than I would thought on an island. I love this island! I wish I had been able to get out on the island more for pictures but we were stuck behind a vendors booth the whole time.

The trip did start off on a bad note though, I accidently left my GPS lpugged in and on overnight and it killed my battery so we had to get a jump and it put us over an hour behind schedule. Never leave your GPS plugged in LOL. I learned.

More later.....

2008-03-09T19:16:00.003-04:00

Quicker than a ray of light...

Yes, Vacation is over. I'm back. I am exhausted. Seems like I just left! But so much to do tonight, will post lots about vacation details later. I will say the weather SUCKED at the beach just as it did for almost everyone else this weekend, I saw all about all the massive snow storms. We just had high wind, torrential rains and tornado watches. Fun fun!

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2008-03-05T07:21:00.002-05:00

Vacation all I ever wanted, Vacation had to get away...

I really need to get away, we found out some distressing news at work yesterday. I cant go into details yet and we probably wont know anything until the end of the month but its not great news.

On the good side of things, I am leaving today to go to Becs house, we are driving my van and want to get it loaded today so we can just get up and leave in the morning from her house. I havent packed at all so I better get at it LOL. Hubby did get my laptop set up for me and I am taking our Verizon portable internet with me so I should be online to check in some, and maybe play a few tournaments on Pogo. I just started played tournaments on there and have not won a single one but its really fun!

I thought I would leave you with a picture of my Coworker's desk. She turned 21 last week and we decorated for her.

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2008-03-03T05:25:00.005-05:00

This weekend

I had the best weekend! The Canadian was off and thats right there is pretty rare. He got the bikes out and charged on saturday and Yesterday we rode for the first time in 2008! It was nice outside, a little cool for me on the bike but that didnt stop me. We rode for about 2 1/2 hours, we went through Clemson, Central, Anderson, Norris (I never heard of Norris before LOL), Liberty and Pelzer and back home. I took some pics and will post them but they are lousy, I have to get back in the swing of taking pictures when riding again.
This is my work , the Building with the red door, I took this while driving by, its not that great but I dont think I have ever posted the front of my work before.
Later!

2008-02-29T18:21:00.007-05:00

Friday Field Trip! Carytown VA and the sweet hat!

Well again I havent been anywhere for my field trip this week. But Stuffgirl sent me a picture of herself posing in a shop in Carytown and its so great I thought I would share it! Carytown in Richmond, Va is one of those cool older neighborhoods that has the neatest little shops, its really fun to go shopping there. I miss being able to go there and am happy she has discovered this fun little place. Below are some pics I snagged off the net

2008-02-27T11:56:00.002-05:00

My son the Rockstar!

So Kornfan's band had their very first gig last saturday night. They were the intermission band and only played 3 songs but thats still great!! He told me later it was unreal the rush you get on stage and people are screaming for you. I asked him if it was like being high, and he paused and said....nooooo.....I think he thought I was trying to trick him into revealing whether he has ever been high or not haha. Maybe I was, but it was subconcious if I did. Stuffgirl went and forgot her camera so I got was a cell phone pic ( I admit I cried some because there was another first my kids had that I couldn't go to, i would have done anything to be there. If he had given me more notice I would have been there). Even his sister raved about how good they were. He does this trick, he puts his guitar (yes its his graduation present I gave him last year) behind his head and plays it, and Stuffgirl said the crowd went wild when he did it! No doubt about it, I am a proud mom. He did have bad news last week though, he was laid off at work. Not by the union but the company he was apprenticing with. The union has assured him that in the spring when business picks up he will more than enough work. He is was low on seniority so he was the first to be cut.

Now, my Saturday I went out of my way to go to the bargain grocery store again. You really save money but the crowds were unreal. Anyway, the guy was bagging my groceries and I noticed they had paper bags and I asked for the paper bags. He HANDED me 3 paper bags, asked if that was enough and continued bagging my groceries in the plastic bags!!! Maybe I need better communication skills because I wanted my groceries IN the paper bags, now I killed trees AND made more landfill plastic crap.

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2008-02-25T22:09:00.003-05:00

How was your Monday?

Actually, mine wasn't too bad. After so many awful Mondays I was due a decent one I think. Work went smooth, and other than a bird that got in the house from the dog door everything was fine on the home front. But, let me tell you, when you don't dust your ceiling fans like you should and you get a bird in the house and say said bird likes to flitter around the fan blades....well you get dust EVERYWHERE. I guess I need one of those duster thingies on a long pole, I have a long swiffer but its not quite long enough. Remember I am short and because of my leg issues I don't get up on stools much anymore so the dust collects and collects until Hubby cleans them. He is awesome at cleaning, he cleans better than I do (he is a bit OCD and that helps) but he hasn't thought to dust them lately. Major mess. That and Bird poop on my stove! ewwwwwwwww!

But all in all not a bad Monday, I have had much worse.

The picture has nothing at all to do with this post but it really made me smile.

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2008-02-24T20:06:00.002-05:00

She must have some major gas....

Since she is "not expecting"...

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2008-02-22T21:48:00.005-05:00

Friday Field Tripper...

Again I haven't been anywhere exciting so I am posting pictures of my dogs. I took this with my phone, it really takes great pictures. Took me forever to figure out how to use it, it has a wicked delay Its been a nasty week here, cold rain and just dreary outside. But I caught Wylie looking out the window yesterday when we had a rare moment of sunshine. I think she was watching one of the neighbors cats, and look at her ears standing straight up! Greyhounds usually have their ears back most of the time, and they stand up when something has really caught their attention. Thats Deuce on the floor behind her.

I am so happy its Friday! I love Fridays, the promise of the weekend lies ahead....my sleeping in days. I LOVE to sleep in more than almost anything, although its kinda sad though when I think about it. I guess you are getting old when you like to sleep so much. Its not that I sleep all that late, 9 is the latest I ever sleep but its just not having to be rudely awakened by an alarm when its so dark and cold outside that I love.

Hubby and I have a rare day off together tomorrow. Yay!

OH!! I roughly estimated how much my trip to Jekyll will cost and it looks like I will be able to go!! BUT I wont be able to spend alot on cute greyhound stuff. Thats ok, I have alot of stuff already, here's a couple of pictures of some of my crap :

So as you can see I really don't need anymore. Of course, I didn't need all those either but I love my stuff so much. Everyone loves stuff, right?

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2008-02-21T05:36:00.003-05:00

My vacation

In 2 weeks I was supposed to be going on vacation to Jekyll Island, Ga. Its the annual Sandy Paws Greyhound gathering, I have only missed it one time since it started 5 years ago. I started stashing away money to go a few months ago. But we have had a recent financial crisis at our house and I had to pull out my stash to help us out of a bind. So now I am not sure whether I will get to go or not. I am pretty down about it, I always look forward to getting away, and greyhound events are the best! I hate letting my friends down too, we were going to split the Hotel Villa 4 ways, so if I cant go they will pay more. But they are actally vendors there so they hopefully make enough to cover the room, but I still feel bad.

Anyway, I will updating the situation, when I know more you will know more. The picture is one I took in 2006, I didn't go last year.

Update on the work situation. Well, there is no real update. For everyone else things are pretty much back to normal. The co worker is not speaking to me so things are not normal for me. Its still really weird for me, but not as tense as before. I am still pretty concerned about the threats, I am probably going to make a formal complaint but I doubt if they do anything. They are exempt from the many rules the Government has on business since they have less then 20 employees.

Oh did anyone watch AI last night?? One of the girls had a BAD case of camel Toe, really I cannot believe they let her go out on stage like that!!! The camera people must have noticed too because they only showed her full body once, the rest were just upper body shots LOL. Poor girl, I would have been MORTIFIED!!

As for Project Runway, Team Christian woohooooooo!

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2008-02-19T21:51:00.004-05:00

Oh Bother.....

Because there have been personality conflicts at work, we all had to take a personality test, then we are going to have a meeting to discuss the results of everyones test. Its supposed to help with the situations at work, I kinda have my doubts as to whether it will work or not but an office meeting to get out some gripes is something we have needed for a long time.

Anyway, I took my test and it turns out my personality matches are Queen Elizabeth II and Eyore. Who knew those 2 had so much in common? And now what do I do with this information??

My leg is still hurting, I am getting parnoid now about it wondering if its another blood clot. I am on the blood thinner but I still can get them. I am being silly I know but if its not better tomorrow I guess I will go see the doctor.

Oh bother.

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2008-02-18T05:47:00.002-05:00

Free Comments & Graphics

Its monday, can you feel the excitement??

I truly hate Mondays. I really do.

So I thought about the situation at work all weekend wondering what I should do. For now I have decided to do nothing, nothing I can say or do will make things better I think. This wouldn't bother most people I know but it really upsets me. But everyone's advice is to ignore her so thats what I am going to do. But if any more threats come my way I will take some kind of action...not sure what LOL.

I decided to go grocery shopping Saturday instead of my usual Sunday and I am so glad I did. Yesterday I had one of the bad days where my legs hurt so bad all frigging day. It was the worst its been in a while...I lived on pain pills yesterday but they didn't help much. Then last night they got better just about the same time we had some terrific storms in the area. I still say the weather changes effect my symptoms, but the doc says it doesn't. What the hell does he know? Anyway, I went to the bargain grocery store Saturday and got a buggy load of stuff for $41! I hadn't gone there in a long time and I forgot how much you can save.

Its a bank holiday today which means no mail at work, usually I get to take some time off during bank holidays but we are way behind so this will be a good catch up day. But the catch up work is pretty boring so it should be a LONG day.

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2008-02-15T23:57:00.006-05:00

Its another friday field trip!

This is not as good as Amy's field trip today (check her out!) but its more pictures of the short trip we took to Virginia a few weeks ago.

The whole family, except the Canadian took the picture.
The brats, Kornfan and Stuffgirl in front of the IHop. What? You dont make your kids pose in front of the IHop??

This one is a little better. They HATE posing for pictures and I forgot to get a good one and made them pose in front of IHop before we left. They were thrilled.

Since hubby wasn't in the family pic, I thought I would post one of him.

Well its after midnight so its not Friday anymore but I started this Friday field trip on Friday, honest!

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2008-02-15T05:57:00.002-05:00

Valentines, a day to feel loved and despised at the same time!

My hubby sent me those flowers yesterday at work, he done good!! I really had a nice valentines, and i have had some bad ones in the past. I know alot of people feel valentines is just a commercial holiday but I will take any gesture of love I can get, I am that insecure or needy, not sure which one. It made me feel alot better, I have been pretty depressed about the situation at my work. The situation there is no better, although my boss says I was in the right and did nothing wrong its stressful to work in a small office where someone has threatened (not to my face though) to "beat the crap out of me". Yesterday my boss had a talk with her where she refused to admit that she was wrong, even though the boss said she was not doing her job and it effected everyone else. She thinks its all a big conspiracy. She was crying hysterically and kept saying she didnt do anything wrong and the boss kept saying yes you did. I truly think she is mentally unable to comprehend that she is wrong about anything, there is no doubt she has some mental issues. But knowing that and trying to be understanding if that is the case doesnt help me having to work with her.

I know everyone is sick of this, lord knows I am but I have to get all this out somewhere.

But! Today is friday and I am ready for the weekend!!!

2008-02-14T05:52:00.001-05:00

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2008-02-13T22:14:00.005-05:00

I had to get the work drama off the top of the blog.....

So I am posting this picture I found on tmz.com of Kate Hudson and Goldie Hawn. Do they not look like the same person??? Its amazing how much alike they look, its like Goldie has a mini me!! Now thats some good genes!!

Now I post a picture of me and MY daughter, and we look NOTHING alike, but I swear she is mine, no one switched babies on me.
As for the work drama today there was none for me since today was my day off. I heard from my co worker friend that she is still talking trash...whatever. I had more important things to do today. I had my monthly labs and B12 shot, so I spent a about an hour in the doctors office and EVERYONE there had the flu... They were making people wear those little blue masks but still I was trying to stay away from people but its hard in a waiting room. I do not need the flu!!!

Good news, I lost 4 more lbs for a total loss of 23 lbs since June. It slow but its coming off, being forced to eat right has really helped my diseases and I look a bit better too. If I could get some exercise I would FIERCE lol.

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2008-02-13T08:01:00.002-05:00

The Drama is far from over....dammit.

So I felt bad and was going to apologize yesterday and explain the reasons why I didn't feel like I could go to my co worker with problems. She is the type of person that can accept no kind of criticisms, will yell and argue with her BOSS when told something and screams and throws crying tantrums like a child. I am serious. This is why NO one says anything to her, no one wants to deal with that, least of all me. And also this is the reason that the boss doesn't speak to her when she should because she doesn't want to deal with it either. My boss wants to fire her but this is the deep south and the good ole boy system is firmly in place, a relative of hers is a close friend of one of the owners. Anyway true to form she threw a fit, argued and cried, hysterical loud sobs. So I felt bad and was going to apologize. Until yesterday.

I went in late yesterday because I went to have a hearing test (40% heredity hearing loss, it sucks). When I got in a hear she has been talking trash about me all morning. Still I felt bad. Then she threw a report on my desk that she didn't even finish her part. Then ignored me all the time talking trash about me. She was speaking to the boss that actually came down on her but not me. Still, I was feeling bad. Then another co worker came over and told me that she has had it in for me for years now. The more I thought about that the more I realized certain things that happened, it was like my eyes were opened, I see her for what she truly is...not just an annoying coworker but a hateful vengeful person. So I will not be apologizing. I don't know what will happen. My boss says she will talk to her again but she tends to put off dealing with her so I am not holding my breath.

So yeah work is miserable for me this week.

2008-02-12T06:53:00.000-05:00

Its OVER!!!!!!!!!!

Thank god the writers strike is over. I am a TV addict and these reality shows are getting to me. I don't watch as much TV as I used to since I discovered Blogging but I still watch quite a bit. The newest reality show I have been watching is the Millionaire's Club on Bravo. Has anyone else seen this? Its about a matchmaker service for millionaires. What? And they work on commission, kinda like a Realtor. And its ALOT of money. So these Millionaires can't seem to find a woman on their own? Its interesting to watch, they will have these events where there are about 20 women and then 2 of the millionaires and the guys get to pick out 2 girls to get to know better. Kinda like a meat market or a singles bar but the women are "carefully screened" according to the website. It baffles me but I cant stop watching!

Yesterday was another bad Monday and I blew up at my boss about another co worker. Not cool of me to do that, not cool at all. But when what someone does affects my work and has been for a while I hold crap in. I feel bad about but I feel I am in the right too. Anyway, my coworker is furious at me but really she almost deserved it. But I still feel so bad.

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2008-02-11T06:18:00.000-05:00

Fool's gold and Mondays

I have had 2 terrible Mondays in a row. I know I complain about Mondays, but they usually aren't THAT bad but the past 2 weeks have been major stressful at work. So I am keeping my fingers crossed its not bad today.

Saturday I went shopping and to a movie with my coworker and 2 of her kids. I would post pictures but she has this thing about the internet, LOL its EVIL ya'll!!!! Its funny how some people think its evil. I for one think its a wonderful thing since I met my hubby online. I will have to post about that one day. OH....another one of my coworkers is very religious (baptist, this is the deep south) and she truly believes barack Obama is the Antichrist! She is serious about this. Now, I don't care for him much but I think thats going a bit far into crazy land.

Anyway we also went and saw Fool's Gold, which got skewered by the critics but I liked it. Pretty warm scenery, clear blue water and Matthew McConaughey with no shirt on most of the movie!!! The movie isnt great as a comedy, I think its more of an adventure movie, lots of action, and I enjoyed it. Say what you want but there is some awesome chemistry between Kate Hudson and Matt (I figure since I have seen him almost naked so often I can call him Matt) that is undeniable! It was worth the price of a movie ticket.

OK time to make the doughnuts.....

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2008-02-08T20:54:00.000-05:00

Friday field trip time!

Ugh its hard to do these because I NEVER go anywhere LOL. I am going back to Jekyll Island next month so I'll have a good field trip then. For now you have to be happy with my quick trip to Virginia last weekend.

This is my sister in law posing with her bag we got her for christmas. I think she really liked it! Thats my brother behind her.
My mom asked for a "petticoat" with no side slit. Its hard to find a slip with no slits and even harder to say LOL. Despite her expression here she loved it :)
This is blurry but I wanted to show what Stuffgirl got. Its a stuffed monkey that plays her ipod and its headphones (which are the speakers) light up! She squealed when she got it, I didn't need to get anything else cuz the she was all about that monkey!
Here is a less Blurry shot. For some reason I didn't get a good picture of Kornfan, but he declared that the Fender shirt I got him was "Tight" as in cool I guess. I need to brush up on my lingo.

I have more pictures I'll save for later.

Horray its the weekend!!! I plan on sleeping lots.

Oh I have a spell check now, I think its from my firefox? Not sure where it came from but its sure nice, I missed my spell check

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2008-02-07T23:08:00.000-05:00

Happy Chinese New year!!

Its the year of the rat...whatever that means.

The flu is going around here, EVERYONE has it. I swear its a little epidemic here in hicktown. 5 out of the 9 gals I work with have it or are just getting over it. The Doctors offices and the hospital are saying don't come in unless its a real emergency because they are all full, plus the health care people are getting it too. I am drinking lots of airborne and praying I don't get it. Even though I did get a flu shot the odds are not in my favor.

The Canadian did not get a day shift job this time....what they are doing is the one thing he didn't want. I think he is getting screwed but he says he is not. I hate these midnight shifts but he loves them. grrrr.

Britney is out on the lose again. Paparazzi wives, hide your husbands!

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2008-02-07T06:25:00.000-05:00

Accidental Overdose

I don't buy it. I think they said that out of respect, he had enough drugs in him to kill a horse. So sad.

I guess he finally got some sleep.

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2008-02-05T22:28:00.000-05:00

When did Billy Joe get old?

My son is a budding musician, and we were having a conversation about music and rock and roll, and I mentioned Green Day as a group I really like. He declares that Billy Joe Armstrong is OLD as is trying to look young, and he is washed up. Now, I checked Wickipedia and Billy Joe was born in 1972. Kornfan was born in 1989. He is 17 years younger and Billy Joe will be 36 this year. I am 47...so I guess I am REALLY old huh?

For the record I do not consider Green Day washed up...or OLD.

But I started thinking about how most rock groups don't like the idea of aging. Pete Townsend wrote those Famous words "I hope I die before I get old" Now he IS old, I bet he has changed his tune about aging!

My spell check is STILL not working....GRRRR

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2008-02-04T20:06:00.000-05:00

Another sucky monday but at least there is a movie review!

We made it back from our really short trip just fine...no major traffic really. Super bowl sunday is a good travel day, really not many people are out on the roads. I didnt watch the game but I did Watch Tom Petty :)

Anyway I am exhausted and a little surly from work today, it was another bad day. I am so ready for a good monday, is that asking too much????

But I did go see 27 Dresses friday afternoon. Its a sweet movie, a little trite at first but then it gets better. Katherine Heigel is so great! This is a not a great movie but its sweet and enjoyable and really what more could I ask for?

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2008-02-02T07:27:00.000-05:00

Is she or isnt she??

We are leaving for Virginia in a little while but I thought I would run down some celebrity stuff before I go. We will have the laptop but very little time so I wont be one much.

Angelina Jolie, that marriage destroyer looked pregnant at the sag awards to me. I mean look at the picture! Her face even looks fuller. Now since I had multiple miscarriages I can understand why these celebrities chose not to announce until after the first trimester but come on now when you visibly look pregnant just say you are for Gods sakes! Its the new trend, Christinia Agulera was HUGE before she admitted it, So was Jennifer Lopez. At least Nicole Ritchie didnt wait too long.

Lets discuss Angelina. Know I make no secret I dont like her, I think she broke up Brad's marriage, I think she is a man eater. I still say she will break his heart. BUT seeing them at the sag awards, they are obviously so much in love, they were contanstly looking at each other, smiling little secret smiles and had to constantly touch. He was never that way with Jennifer at awards shows, they were kinda stiff. So maybe I was wrong. And they are doing such good works at New Orleans.

And Britney? What a mess this all is! I feel for her but its hard to feel sorry for someone that is so into a medical disorder that they are rude and obnoxious. My friend's dad is Bi Polar and is rude and obnoxious too, its part of the disease. I hope she gets treated but I think she is on the downside of her carreer, she will be the next Michael Jackson and have to go bankrupt.

ok enough of this, I need to get ready. My spell check is not working, is anyone else have problems on blogger with it?? I need my spell check!!!!!!!!!

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2008-02-01T18:13:00.000-05:00

Its STILL winter...

January was the longest month, I thought it would never end! If we can get through Febuary Spring will be here. Gotta love early springs and late winters but I vote for no winter! As you can see from the picture, Mocha also hates winter, she gets as close to the heater as she can. I tried to get the little dogs to go out in the icy rain this morning and I swear if they could talk they were looking at me and saying "aww HELL no"!

I've felt kinda blah all week. I think I have another kidney infection or another stone. I should have gone to the doctor this week but it was nice to have a week with no doctors appointments! I finally made an appointment with the ear doc for my hearing loss. Its bad, they tease me at work all the time about it. I may need a hearing aid at 47!! But I am hoping maybe they just have bad wax buildup? I have no problem with wearing a hearing aid but i dont think my insurance will cover it. With all my medical issues and my grey hair I really feel like I am in an episode of the twilight zone where people age rapidly! I could dye my hair but I did for so many years and Igot just tired of worrying about it.

Tomorrow I will see my family, I hated not being there for christmas. We are exchanging christmas a little late tomorrow night with Pizza as the holiday feast :)

Its too soon to comment on the steam mop, we need to use it a little more to see. I was quite pleased the first time I used it though.

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