Concert for Diana
Yesterday I watched some of this concert, I love these live world wide concerts, there is another one this coming weekend. I watched it and cried. I cried for Diana, dying so young, for her sons who have lost thier mother. I cried for my dad, tomorrow would have been his 72 birthday. My loss is still so fresh it amazes me that these boys could plan a concert like this for their "mum" and speak about her without pain, to speak about her with happiness. I guess maybe in 10 years time I will be like that too. But not tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be rough.
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posted by Mel at 5:35 AM
9 Comments:
Mel--
I don't think the boys were speaking without pain, but their pain may now be overshadowed by fond memories and love-- which happens in time.
I don't think the pain goes away. I think I've told you before, I don't have a father, I had a sperm-donor and a step-monster.
But I had my grandfather. He's been gone more than 15 years now. Each day I look at an older gentleman with graying slick-backed hair and think to myself "I want my Grandpa back."
Your tears are legitimate, they will subside and eventually be overshadowed by fond memories and twangs of pain of the loss of what would have been.
Mel, I don't think the pain ever diminishes it just doesn't come as frequently is all. (((hugs)))
There comes a point where you are able to remember the loved one with joy. Oh, the pain is still there, and in regard to my sister there are times I just can't cope at all and fall apart thinking about how she should never have died at such a relatively young age.
But those times are fewer, and now I recall lots of wonderful moments we shared and the fun we had in traveling far and wide. I remember how different we were, but there was much we learned from our differences. She's still my sister and I still love her, she's just not here for me to see face-to-face on a regular basis. But I WILL see her again, I have no doubt about that.
This August will make 3 years since she died.
You'll be okay, Mel. Cry whenever you need to. That was your father, of course you still feel pain. But know in your heart that he is never far off from you. The pain will lighten with time, but it will never fully go away. But those good times will come to mind more and more, and you will find times to laugh at the joy in your relationship with him.
I'm sorry for your loss. There is no timetable for grief and mourning. I wish you the best.
When my sisters birthday came around the first year she was gone, we found a way to celebrate. We got 25 balloons for her birthday, and released them. WE also got her favorite -- chocolate cake!
Maybe you could do something similar.
Did you see The Queen movie? I thought it was well done and includes a lot of footage of Diana that made me remember what a great person she was.
It seems like it happened just yesterday. I feel so sad for her boys but they really do seem to be doing well.
(((Mel)))
It seem like yesterday I turned on the tv and so the news about Princess Diana and I wanted to watch the concert and forgot about it :(
Saying a prayer for you while you're remembering your dad....(((hugs))))
Just wanted to send you a hug and tell you that I am thinking of you and your dad today.
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