"Well, I am the best there is. Plain and simple. When I wake up in the morning I piss excellence."

I have reviews ready of what I have been reading and watching this week. I know the world has been waiting for my keen observations.

Movie : Talledega nights the Legend of Ricky Bobby. I have not laughed so hard in a long time! I thought it would be stupid and it kind of was but it made me laugh. The quote at the top is from this movie. The only down side was I thought how much my Dad would have LOVED this movie, and that made me sad.

Books; The Black Jewels Trilogy by Anne Bishop. Awesome fantasy fiction. The first book was a little difficult for me to get through, there are alot of characters, and terms to learn to set it up fore the rest of the trilogy. My daughter sent me the books and said once I got through that part I would not want to stop reading and she was right! I am sad now that I have finished it, I think the testament to any fiction is if I miss the characters when I finish reading. I miss these Characters already.

TV: Entourage the First Season DVD. I love these guys! I kinda wish they would do a prequel, like how they all got to Hollywood in the first place.

Well that's it. Late Christmas party tonight. Yeah its late but its just how me and my peeps roll

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What me worry?


My mom is a constant worrier. She worries about small stuff, big stuff, anything at all. She worries about stuff that has not happened yet. Its a wonder the woman doesn't have an ulcer or something! Growing up with her (she has always been that way) has made me an unworrier. I don't worry about stuff that much. It used to drive my ex husband crazy that I wouldn't worry about bills. Whats the point? Maybe if I was close to being homeless I would worry about bills more. I owe so much money to the hospital and various docs I would be sick if I thought about it all the time. I don't resent owing this money, they saved my life more than once and I appreciate that. I am not like my mom. She worries about EVERYTHING. Case in point....she had an appointment with the social security office yesterday at 2:00. She lost the letter they sent her (she loses stuff too) and worried all day yesterday she was missing the appointment until my brother came to drive her. I talked to my brother last night and he said he doesn't worry about stuff either.


I don't know where I am going with this post, except just trying to understand why I don't worry. Its because I saw my mom making herself sick over stupid stuff growing up. Its not making any sense but I am posting it anyway and I wont worry about it.



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Back to work for me today.......AGHHHHHHHHHH

That is all, go back to your regular sceduled holiday week.

Shop Til you drop...

I went shopping this morning. EARLY. Too early! I didnt want to but I spent Christmas night with my friend and the gals all decided WE were going shopping early. UGH. I am not a great shopper, I dont like it as much as some people do and my mobility is a problem too. Seriously the phrase shop till you drop, well thats about an hour for me. I was smart though, I took my own car and left them when they were headed to Belks. I really didnt see any great deals though. Nothing worth getting up before dawn for anyway!

I finally got satelitte radio for my car! I am excited BUT its not installed yet (the antenna) so I have it but cant use it, so that is a bummer. I got Sirius, I am sure I will love it. I have NO idea when hubby will get around to installing it.....grrrr. Maybe this weekend when he is off, I hope anyway.

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Its Christmas Eve.....

and I have had a christmas miracle of sorts. I read the Canadian's schedule all wrong, and I got it completely wrong. He will be here all day today and most of the day tomorrow. I thought I would be completely alone. So he has agreed to cook the christmas breakfast I am used to. Dad used to cook christmas breakfast for the family and woe be to us if if we were late! It was hard when you have kids and stuff to get christmas morning over quickly so we could rush over to their house. I used to resent they wanted to eat so early but now I would give anything to relive just one of those early breakfasts! We are not eating early though this year though LOL.

Someone sent me the picture on MySpace. ITs called the meeting, and I am not sure who did it but its awesome! Enjoy.

Happy Holidays!

Well I did it.


I "upgraded" to blogger beta. I didnt seem to have a choice really. I hope everyone can comment and see me just the same.

It just doesnt feel like Christmas here. Its pouring rain and dreary, and I am sad, very sad. My brother says if we can get "get through" this Christmas then next year christmas will be better. I hope he is right. The ONLY thing I am looking forward to this holiday is a 4 day weekend!!! Woot!

Tomorrow is MY day, LOL. Its our anniversary and I told the Canadian to set aside the whole day to do whatever I want to do! The problem is, I dont know what I want to do! Sleep late but I ALWAYS want to sleep late. So I have to come up with something. I know we'll eat out but I am not much for going to the clubs or partying anymore. I am thinking of dinner out, driving around looking at christmas lights and home early to make hot chocolate and watch Christmas vacation. I know I am boring, so boring!

We bought ourselves some Omaha Steaks for christmas, lots of poeople rave about them so we thought we would try them. I cant wait for dinner, they look so good! The price was better than the at the grocery store and we had loads of fun playing with the dry ice it was packed in last nice. LOL Told you, we are BORING.

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Wordless Wendsday
Stuffgirl posted this pic on her site. Thanksgiving 1987, she was 2 days old.

Personal space...is it too much to ask for???

I know I ended that in a preposition, but I am a rebel that way! Anyways, the other day I had to get one for my many prescriptions refilled and as my usual procrastinating self I waited until I was completely out. I get to the drugstore and there is this crowd waiting for their drugs too. There were 4 chairs and kids were sitting in 2 of them.! There were older folk waiting and me who looks perfectly healthy on the outside but cannot stand for even a short time without being in pain, or better yet my legs collapsing out from under me. Thats really embarrasing in public. But my point is, its just Freaking RUDE for parents to let kids sit in chairs when there are old people around that need to sit down! My mom would have smacked me for this but these parents are sitting with kids ignorning the 80 year old man with the cane! Pissed me off. OK so the crowd starts to thin and most everyone has left so I do take one of the chairs and sit down before I fall. I am sitting there quietly waiting and minding my own business when this woman sits next to me. She leans over to me REALLY close and starts stroking my sweatshirt!! She says "OH I just love your shirt where did you get it?" I am trying to pull away but those chairs are close and there was no escape. But get this, I was wearing a plain grey sweatshirt, Hanes or something but everyone has one of these. It was nothing special about it!! In fact it was my "schelp" around the house sweatshirt. Luckily, the drugstore lady called my name so I was able to get away from the sweatshirt stroker. Why is it always me?? WHY???

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Monday Again???

Christmas sickie

that's me. Something at made me sick as a dog last night! I dunno what is was, I didn't eat alot yesterday but something didn't agree with my tummy! But I seem to be better, I ate some toast earlier and now my stomach is growling.

that's one of the decorations...santa Skeleton. Remember I work for some radiologists so Santa Skeleton is more than fitting!

I have been busy ordering presents online today. I am so not in the Christmas spirit, I keep thinking about how much my dad loved Christmas! My mom does too, I wish I could be with her. My brother and my kids will be with her though so that's good. Barring a lottery win there is no way for me to get there. Hubby is working the 24, 25 and 26 so I am thinking of just being by myself. I have been invited to 2 places but I dunno, I think I may to be by myself this year.
OH!! But thanks to my friend Sans reminding me of one of my all time favorite shows Daria, I ordered the 2 Daria movies for Stuffgirl! She will LOVE that. I would love that, I think I am gonna drop some hints to hubby for my own copies. He already gave me my Christmas present (he is like a kid he just cant wait LOL) but we also the anniversary next week :) I'll post about my Christmas present later, but it was not a Ipod.

OK I am off to get a steak and cheese sub, I think my tummy can handle that, I hope so cuz its what I am craving.

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Holiday office party!

Today is the holiday office party at work. WOOT! I watched the Office's party last night as I prepared the gift bags. I always get everyone something little (this year they were ornament picture frames and a candy cane pen) and then we draw names for a big present. This means only 1/2 of actual work!! We are going someplace new this year so I hope the food is good. They are serving wine and beer but since I dont drink I concentrate of the food lol.

I dont think our office party will be as fun as the one last night on the office but we will try. OH they decorated yesterday, I will take my camera and get pics, they were funny decorations.

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Nightmare before Christmas..


ok so remember the evil Boss from hell that made my life misery for almost 8 years?? If you are new here, you don't know her, but she was my worst nightmare. Honestly she had some issues. She was a bit too much into the power trip I guess and that power trip is what caused her downfall. She's has been gone since August, no one misses her at all! But yesterday, I got a Christmas card from her!!!!!!!!!!!! Ack! I don't get it, its freaking me out.


Also Blogger is freaking me out. I couldn't comment most of the day yesterday and on Tuesday too. So I try to switch to Beta and it wont let me, I guess my blog is too big. It suggested I make a new blog? WTF? If I make a go to the trouble to make a new blog it wont be on Blogger!! I blog to relax and lately it has had me stressed out so it defeats the purpose.

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I cant comment today!

I dunno what is going on but blogger wont accept me as me. I am me, I know it, I mean I was me when I went to bed last night. If I am not me does that mean I don't have to go to work today?? If I am not me does it mean I don't have to pay my bills this month? hmmm. Maybe blogger is on to something here!

They didn't have to do anything after all to my mom, they got in there and everything looked great. The woman is a healthy as a horse, a 73 year old horse that wont eat. The docs want her to gain weight, but she just doesn't eat right and it will be worse now with dad not there.

Had a long talk with my brother last night, he is handling the finances and getting everything straight but my uncle is executor of dads will and we need some help with figuring out things. They had no savings and lots of debt so its not looking great right now. My brother asked me about moving there and I told him hubby cant take a $4 an hour pay cut to move where the cost of living is higher. He said we would move in with mom, I don't think that would work at all!! I said she is too unsteady on her feet to be around my dogs and he said oh you would have to get rid of your dogs!! GET RID OF MY DOGS??????????????? What like they are garbage that can be thrown out?? That really bothered me he said that, and I didn't say anything to him but I would never get rid of my dogs. If something happened to hubby I might have to but just to move? I used to rescue dogs and all of my dogs are rescued, I would take away the only home they have ever known? I don't think some people understand that the dogs are my family too. Obviously my brother doesn't, and he has 3 cats!

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The monday blues...

What the heck happened to the weekend?? Where did it go? *sigh*

I overslept and really SHOULD be in the shower like....NOW. But I havent finished my coffee!

My mom is having surgery today, my dad was always the one in the hospital not her, she has been healthy as a horse. One of the arteries going into her colon is blocked and they are going in to possibly put a stent it. Its normally outpatient but because of her age they are keeping her overnight. I will be on pins and needles waiting to hear today.

happy monday

Christmas movies and me

after a huge grocery shopping expedition, ( we hadn't gone at all since thanksgiving) I settled into my recliner with 2 dogs in my lap and watched Christmas movies all day long. The hallmark Channel had some on all day. Now, I admit I am a bit a bah humbug at Christmas, and this Christmas will be really a sad one for me, but I love me some sappy sentimental Christmas movies! I watched Unlikely Angel with Dolly Partan, Angel in the family with Meredith Baxter Berney and I cant remember the name of the last one but it had Mary Steenburgen and it had an Angel in it too! Am I tired of sappy Christmas movies?? Nope! I love em! I plan on watching more tomorrow :)

My favorite Christmas show is the original animated Grinch who stole Christmas. I really want that Grinch song as my ringtone but Verizon doesn't have it. I tried to record it on my phone but it came out all garbled.

I only really got sad once today. There was a long line at the post office and we were all crammed into a small space (small town living ) and there was an old man that kept telling jokes in the line. He reminded me so much of dad, although I am sure this guy was older.

Anyway, whets your favorite Christmas movie/show?

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Reality kinda sucks

I am not sure I am handling this well. I cry at least once a day, and thats on a good day. I am angry too, angry with my dad for not fighting harder to stay with me. Selfish thoughts I know, but I cant seem to help it. Everything EVERYTHING is a trigger for me to get all emo. Tuesday driving back from lunch to work I somehow got stuck IN a funeral procession. Yesterday I was reading blog comments on another blog and someone quoted the Pie song from the Movie Michael and I cried. Pie was my dads absolute favorite food in the world. He told me one time they lived near a bakery when he was a kid and the guy would sell him the old pies for like a penny and he would sit on a curb outside and eat the whole thing. Yesterday at work I was doing something boring and repetitive, and my mind would wander and I get upset again! Even my friend HBO is a trigger, they are playing Walk the Line, the movie I gave him for fathers day this year. I know its only been a week and a 1/2 but when does the pain go away??? I was Talking to Friend that lost her mom, sister, dad and brother all this year and she said she had felt angry at her sister after she died. Angry because her sister stopped eating and stopped figting the cancer. So I guess Anger is a part of this, I dont know.

Oh I just read the Kubler Ross Grief Cycle and Anger is a one of the Cycles. So I am ok I guess LOL.


I am trying to stay upbeat though. LOL it sure doesnt look like it in this post but really I am. Honest!

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Wordless Wendsday


My parents wedding picture Aug 1956

Christmas vacation

This is my favorite holiday movie scene! I love this movie. Warning, there is some language on this so you may want to open when kids are not around, and you may want to play on low volume if you are at work :)

Bah Humbug
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Its Monday again

that's ok, no complaining today. Next Monday though I will be back to hating Mondays though I am sure :)

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Yeah I am HOME!

I am so so glad to be home, even though I am feeling guilty for not being closer to mom. She is handling all this very well, I am surprised how well she is handling it. She knew sometime she would lose him I guess. Me, I am ok as long as I don't think too much. Somehow I just thought death for other people, not my family.

I have lots to keep me occupied unpacking, laundry, Dogs, reading over a weeks worth of blogs and catching up, plus I can play pogo again. I haven't had time to play yet but I can if I want to. I don't know how dad dealt with that system of his and dialup too! Plus The Canadian gave me a Christmas present early, a Gigabeat MP3player since I broke my other one, and speakers. I have to learn how to work this one. It will take a while too but I plan on reading every blog entry on my blogroll while I was gone so bear with me.

I am not even thinking about moving right now, Its just too much right now. I am just going to make more trips up to visit for now. I like it here for now, I like my job (even though I hate having to work), I have some good friends here too. The Canadian LOVES his job, he likes working!! We own our house (well its mortgaged) and I like our house here.

Thanks for all the advice and well wishes! It has really helped.

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