The meaning of life...
So lately I have been thinking about death alot. I usually try to avoid thinking of things like that, I have a true Scarett O'Hara mentality, I really put off thinking about the bad stuff. "I'll think about it tomorrow...at Tara!" But I am terrified of death, I have no faith that anything lies out there. I wish I did have faith it would make things easier. I would love to believe I will see my dad again but then will I see the people that I didnt like too? NO, it just doesnt make sense to me. I wonder why I am here, and I stress that my life is ordinary but ordinary is the way I want to be. I have not accomplished anything of worth except my kids. They are pretty great but still, when I die what mark will I leave on this earth?
My head hurts.
You learn something new every day....
I had lunch with a friend of mine yesterday. I was the only one who ate though. She had her tongue pierced a few days before and still couldn't eat much. I don't really understand the whole piercing craze, although I think a tiny diamond stud in the nose can be attractive. This gal as gone through alot of pain with this thing. THEN she tells me WHY decided to get it done. I am so naive, I thought she did it because f the way it looks! I guess I am just an old unhip person but my sex life is just fine without studs in my tongue. ewwww
The soft contacts felt great but I couldn't see a damn thing with them. They are ordering me another pair with another strength to try.
Fab honey my eyes are way worse than yours. Sorry to disappoint. But you know what its like not be able to see.
Happiness is soft contact lenses.
I am pretty excited today, I get to try on a pair of soft contact lenses! Why is this exciting?? I have worn hard plastic lenses since I was 15. I have mentioned before how bad my eyesight is. when I was 15 the eye doc decided I should start wearing contact lenses, he felt they would slow my eyes from getting worse. Talk about torture. I would cry everyday during the process where you would gradually build up your wearing time. Honestly it was bad and if it was up to me I would have thrown them away the first day. But I was a minor and there was no way in hell my mom would let me throw them away with how much they cost, and would monitor me to make sure I wore them. Anyway I got used to wearing them and have worn them ever since. I was able to switch to a gas permeable lens a few years ago which made them a bit more comfortable. But as I have gotten older my eyes have rebelled and I still wear them but they hurt pretty bad by the end of the day and my wearing time is pretty much during work only. They have never offered a soft lens in my prescription until now and I am really really excited!! So lets hope they fit!
And my new glasses are bifocals for the first time and because of my high Rx to get the thinner lenses they were $600!!!!!! You people with perfect eyesight don't know how much money you save! But its worth every penny to see clearly.
Mondays and work.....
I took pictures of my desk at work last week. There has been lots of drama at my work which I hate. Even if the drama doesn't concern me its such a small office that everyone is affected. Anyway, sorry my desk was kinda cluttered that day, it doesn't always look that bad! I love my cubicle in the back by myself and I fought for it but they are going to be moving people around and it looks like I will lose my desk and have to move. I don't want to but what can you do?
Now everyone, post pictures of YOUR workplace!
PS Mondays SUCK.
Daughters, tattoos and Groceries.
So its been a boring Saturday. Hubby was off, and I needed him to go get groceries. I made a list and he is in bed now. Now, I don't want to be a nag, but there is not even bread for a sandwich here. I know he doesn't like going grocery shopping on his day off but I did it for years! Its a pain when I cant do stuff for myself. grrrr.
My daughter is on the phone, she is bummed, her dad wont let us use the car and she cant get in touch with any of her friends and she is stuck at home again. Something is going on with the unboyfriend I think, they make plans but then he never calls or shows up. She hasn't said anything because her last boyfriend told her she is too clingy and controlling, but he is taking advantage of her I think.
Still thinking of the tattoo, still want it on my wrist. I might hurt but it cant compare to all the medical things that I have gone through, at least I don't think so. My mom will not be happy. So I don't know for sure. But my daughter suggested a design, Kermit the frog playing a banjo. Dad loved frogs and he played the banjo (some). I don't know about the copyrights or anything though.
Tomorrow I have to get new tennis shoes since one of mine disappeared. I have a suspect, that's her picture.
Pet deaths linked to and Cat food!!!
This story is extremely distressing! We don't feed any wet/can food to our dogs (our dogs are kibble dogs) but I have friends that do. Some are saying the rat poison had to have been put in deliberately....I don't know about that but just be careful!! The dog in the picture is Pebbles, she went into kidney failure and later died.
Spring has come...Finally!
It really is spring here, the flowers are blooming and my allergies are acting up! Just thought I would post a picture of my flowering cherry tree...at least that's what I think its called. Anyway, its really pretty but it doesn't stay pretty very long.
I am thinking of getting a tattoo, very small and discreet, maybe on my wrist (haha like Britney). I am not sure what to get. At first I thought something with a greyhound but actually what I would really like is some sort of memorial for dad. I thought about his initials (JEB) or Banjo since he LOVED bluegrass so much. Any ideas? A banjo isn't very feminine and I am a girly girl so I want something girly.
7 Song Meme....
I got this from Fantastgirl who was tagged by Tug. I also got it from Jen, not sure who tagged her. The rules are put 7 songs you are into right now even if they are stupid. ok here we go...
1. Fergalicious...Fergie. I can't stand her but I love this song for some reason! Its hilarious, it has some great lines "I be up in the gym just-a working on my fitness!" and "I blow kisses, that put them boys on rock rock" LOL!!!
2. Jane Fonda ...Mickey Avalon. This song has explicit and vulgar lyrics and I love it!! I go around all day singing "one two three four put your body on the dancefloor, work it out, shake it little momma, lemme see ya do the Jane Fonda" "More junk in her trunk than a Honda" hehehe.
3. Shine on...Jet. This song makes me cry almost every time I hear it. It reminds of my dad, its not his type of music but the song is about loss I think.
4. CandyMan...Christina Agulerra. I don't know why I like this but I do. The video is great! I used to hate her, she had a porn/slut image for a while but she sure has cleaned up her act.
5. Smile...Lily Allen. She looks and sounds so sweet but she is a hellraiser from what I hear. Here is the link to this video, check it out! Its a good video. I would post it here but since I upgraded I havent been able to that.
6 Fidelity. Regina Spektor. I need to google her, I don't know what much about her. But this song gets stuck in my head and I love her voice.
7. Wait....Get Set Go. This is on the Greys Anatomy soundtrack. They pick out great music for that show. Get set Go has another song on there "I hate everyone" I think I like "I hate everyone" better.
I am glad to be home, I was the main one on the phones today and between the phone and my helper at my desk every 10 minutes yapping away, I was stressed. So I am unwinding. Tomorrow I have off but it medical test day...woohoo. I have to get more bloodwork, and EKG, my yearly echcardiogram and an MRI of my lower back (A waste of time and money I think). And pick out new frames for my bifocal glasses! ACK!!! Bifocals. I am officially old.
Movie review monday...
So yeah today sucked, It was your typical monday. Its also my team's week on answering the phones and I talked to more old people that cannot hear today. Now I ask you, if you know you cannot hear then why even make phone calls? I should be nicer I will be old one day and my hearing is not great now so I know I will hard of hearing! Speaking of older people, my brother calls me today...here is the conversation
Brother : are you sick?
Me: NO why?
Him: so you are not in the hospital again?
Me: No why?
Him: call mom she is worried sick because you havent called her in days
Me: I just talked to her Saturday!
Him: She was my house Saturday
Me: yes I know I called there and talked to DB (his wife) and then to mom, while you were at work.
Him: Oh. Well, she is all worried so call her
And so I call mom and she is telling me she was so worried she made herself sick! So I tell her I talked to your Saturday. You did? She said, I don't remember. Makes me wanna scream sometimes ARGGGG!
Anyway, hubby and I watched The Illusionist last night. I really liked it. The settings were lush and romantic, the acting was really good. I am surprised it was not nominated for anything. I loved the story, romance and drama, with a surprise twist. And Edward Norton, I don't think I have ever seen him in any bad film, he really makes you feel that he is the character, more so than almost any actors out there these days. Anyway, check it out, its worth it, a wonderful movie.
So whats up with everyone going to invitation only blogs?
Several of the blogs I used to read all the time have gone to Invite only, and I didn't get an invite. In fact I didn't even know they had done this for a while because on workdays I skip around and visit every few days but I stay pretty much caught up. Mad Ethel, Head like a Shoebox and S* I am not ignoring you I just cant get to you! I feel like an outcast, like when I was the last one picked when we had to team sports in PE.
I went with Hubby to the Harley Store today and that was a mistake. I am very depressed over not being able to ride the bike, and he just bought a single seat for the Sportster because he says if I cant ride with him then no one else will. Kinda sweet but I am still kinda depressed. I really miss riding. I miss it so much I was thinking maybe we should should BIG money on a big touring bike, I might be able to ride on one of those. But I don't think he would be happy with one of those. *sigh* Oh another thing that depresses me at the Harley Store is all the women'sclothes are so freaking small. Even the XL is small, and tight fitting. I know a Harley gal is supposed to be sexy and slim but as I looked around the store there were very few small woman there, in fact some larger than me! I think they need to start catering to the larger woman!
My fun visit to the eye doctor....
Wednesday I did something that I hate. I went to the eye doc. I dread it so bad, and put off going. I guess its been about 3 years since I went. My bad. My eyesight is really really bad. People don't believe me for some reason when I say I am blind, I don't know why. But I showed my new Rx to my boss and she was "OH you REALLY are blind"...like why would I lie about that? Anyway, I have been wearing glasses since I was 5 and contacts since I was 15. I had to wear the hard lenses for lenses, and now am wearing the rigid lenses still but they are better then they were. I was always told they don't make soft lenses over a -10 (I am -12.75 in one eye and -16.25 in the other) but now they say coopervision makes some high Rx lenses and I may get to wear soft lenses!!!! How wonderful!!! I would love that,. these hard ones bug me and I can only wear them so long. But the bad news is, I have Cataracts in both eyes now!!! I knew I was having some vision issues and I just thought I needed bifocals (I do though) and it turns out I have cataracts and 46!! I tell you I am aging so fast, its unreal! My dad had cataracts in his 40s, and I told mom on the phone that it would have been nice if he had shared SOME of his medical issues with my brother too LOL instead I got them all!! So while I am excited about soft lenses and I NOT excited about cataract surgery. What next??
Jed's Awesome "I'm Bored" 2007 Survey
I am this from Lynda, who got it from another blogger. Pass it on!
Two Names You Go By:
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. LOVE. absolute and total
Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
2,Playing Pogo games
Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
2. My eyes to go back to normal (I went to the eye doc today and they are dilated, I can barely see to type this. See how dedicated I am haha)
Two pets you [want to] have:
1. I would like a cat again one day but I dont trust my greyhounds with them
2. A parakeet
Two people who will fill this out:
I really really dont know!!
Two things you did last night:
1. went out to eat mexican food!
2. Talked to my daughter on the phone for an hour
Two People that live in your house:
Two things you ate today:
Two people you Last Talked To:
- eggs and bacon
1. my mom
2 Stuffgirl again for like an hour
Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
- watching a new Gray's atatomy (Hofefully but I doubt it will be a new one)
Two longest car rides:
1. SC to Brockville Canada
2. Virginia to Vermont
2 favorite holidays
1.Memorial day ( the start of summer)
Two favorite beverages:
1. Minute maid fruit punch
2. Coke a cola classic
Two Favorite movies:
1. Office Space
2. Sleepless in Seattle
Two Favorite places
Its been warm here for the past few days, really nice weather. I love it!!
But as a result of this warm weather I saw a man today wearing a Wifebeater tshirt. What makes men think this is a good look? Sure if you are Nick Lachey you look awesome in one but the most of the male population does not! It was just kinda gross, this guy was older and hairy all over. Eww.
BUT I did a google search for a picture of a wifebeater tshirt and somehow ended up on this Islamic Jihad website and I couldnt get out of it!!! I had to shut down my system but....The goverment probably tracks that website and now I am wanted by the FBI for sure!! I am going to use my window washer program tonight!! See what a wifebeater shirt can do? It can get you on the FBIs most wanted list! I am going to lay low the rest of the night....
Monday again? NOOO!
Time change monday is the worst! My body said it 4 am when I got up!
400th post!!!! woohooo!
It seems like yesterday almost since I started blogging. Anyway, quite a milestone for me I guess.
Last night I listened to Mr Fab's radio show for the first time, I called in but didn't win anything, but it was great to talk to him and listen to my fellow bloggers too. If you get a chance on a Saturday night check him out! Me I rarely have anything to do on a Saturday night. Sad.
I came up with a hobby finally BUT there is nothing around to support it! I decided to join a book club since I read so much. The local newspaper used to have a book club but they disbanded and there is one 30 miles away that meets at 7 pm on Tuesdays. I cant make that. So, I finally come up with a good idea but oh well. Right now I am reading Jane Austin. Sense and Sensibility, can you believe I never read her before? Damn that Willoboughy! How about a bloggers book club?
And now, my Ipod top 10. I got this from Liz. I tag everyone to do this, its fun. just put your ipod on random and list the first 10 songs that play. And no cheating if you have something really lame :) I don't own an Ipod but I have a Gigabeat that pretty much is the same thing. I love my Gigabeat! OK here's the list
1. Snow Patrol: Eyes open
2.The Cardigans; Live and Learn
3.The Cranberries : Ode to my Father
4 The Killers: Somebody told me
5. Jimmy Buffet: Margaretaville
6.Kill Hannah: Lips like Morphine
7.Stevie Nicks : Bella Donna
8.Joe Jackson: Fools in love
9.Presidents of the United States of America: Kitty
10.Sublime: Wrong Way
That was fun, maybe next week I will do it again since I am constantly adding and deleting songs.
Wild Grease Hogs Fever..
Its all about Travolta today I guess. Wendsday hubby and I went and saw Wild Hogs. I really liked it. Its kinda stupid but its funny stupid. Hubby was almost crying from laughing at one point! As much as I love me travolta I think William Macy was the best part of the movie. Tim Allen....for some reason I cant separate him from the santa clause movies, I expected him to start ho ho hoing on a Harley! LOL. And Martin Lawrence. I am not a fan of his, but he didnt irritate me at all like he usually does in this movie. Its a good movie about good friends.
Then today Grease was on...Travolta at his finest...woohooo he had a rocking bod then! I LOVE that movie!!! But I like Travolta now too, he might not have the bod he used to have but he still can get to me interested to go to any movie he is in. He is up there with Clooney, but Clooney is still my #1 dream man.
I watched some of Saturday night fever, and was reading some stuff about that movie too. I didnt like Travolta's look in that movie. Its no Wild hogs hahaha.
So there is my film review. I am going to start to go the movies more often. I would have gone today but I was not thrilled to see anything thats playing here. Remember, small towns only get the big movies, alot of the ones I want to see have limited releases, and never make it here. oh well.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Blogger ate my post this morning again??? Is this one of the great new features from the upgrade? Its pissing me off!!!
I dont have time to retype it. So here is an old picture...its me when my legs used to work! My family and the dogs marched in a christmas parade, I guess maybe 4 1/2 years ago. The dogs are Jeopardy, Melvin and Wylie (she was still a puppy then so cute!) Thats stuffgirl standing near the white van. Kornfan was not there I dont think, he was all cool and wouldnt do parades, really I think we embarassed him haha! Hubby took the pic.
Movie review...Because I said so.
The critics kinda slaughtered this movie, and frankly it wasn't my choice. But I went with a friend and she picked the movie. I LOVED it. Stupid critics. It was just my kind of movie. It wasn't great but it entertained me. I love a love story, and it was maybe a bit lifetime movie of the week but hey I love lifetime movies. No one got murdered or blown up, its was just a nice love story. The gals were all so lovely. Steven Collins is just so cute and the guy that played Johnny was HOT LOL. This movie wasn't for everyone but I liked it, and will put it on my netflix list.
I also saw snakes on a plane this week (via netflix) and it was OK. Kinda campy. Snakes don't bother me but it seemed kinda gory for snakes. Samuel Jackson is always great though, and the movie line of the year came from this movie "OK I have had it with these Motherfucking snakes on this motherfucking plane!" Only Samuel can do that line justice.
Today hubby and I are both off an we are off to see Wild Hogs! I love me some Travolta, even if if a Scientologist. Will have a review later.
I tried to post this morning but blogger ate my homework....
Alot of fellow bloggers have complained about the posts that just vanish into thin air never to be seen again, and thats what happened I guess. It wasnt a great post anyway.
I want to blog about my mom. She was crying on the phone yesterday, she is lonely and depressed. You have to understand my mom. She was always the loner, in high school she was voted the quietest. She never has made friends easily and never has really tried to make friends through the years. When I lived in Virginia, I spent alot of time of her, shopping and going to movies, or doing stuff with the kids. When she married my dad, he was very outgoing, had lots of friends and could make friends quickly. In fact in social settings he was the life of the party so to say and mom would just bask in the glow of his outgoingness (I know thats not a word but its hard to explain this) and sit quietly. So she really has no friends, I am not there to spend time with her. My brother goes over a couple of times a week, and my kids are going out and doing stuff, have fun and working and havent been there since my last visit. It breaks my heart to hear my mom cry like that but I really dont know what to do. At church it was suggested that maybe some of the senior widow ladies could be roomies and share a house but she was VERY offended at the suggestion and says she doesnt want a roomate. I dont know how to help her and the fact that is she is quiet but she is very stubborn and set in her ways! She also has developed some paranioia lately which makes matters worse.
Anyway I am just venting. Blowing off some steam She misses dad, I miss dad.
13 THINGS I DO NOT UNDERSTAND...
This was actually a Thursday 13 but oh well!
1. Calculus. I took this in College, I only needed one math class to graduate. After about 2 weeks it was like a was in another country and I couldn't speak the language! After 3 weeks I never went back and took a statistics class to count as a math.
2. Sushi. Sorry I am not eating raw things that possibly may carry worms or other nasty things. ewww.
3. Getting drunk. I have never understand this one. Yes, I have had my wild days, I have been drunk, wasted, trashed whatever. But I also had violent hangovers that would last an entire day. I am not allowed to drink anymore because of my heart condition but I hadn't drank alcohol for years before I got sick.
4. Drugs. I was way too scared to try drugs when I was younger. I didn't want to die plain and simple and I had enough fear that I was scared straight LOL. I don't understand why do something that can kill you!
5. Cigarettes. Not only can they kill but they are nasty and stinky and can turn your teeth yellow.
6. Game shows. I have never liked them. I know lots of people love them, but not me.
7. The apprentice. Donald trump. Need I say more??
8. Parents that let their kids backtalk them and dont teach them to respect others. I had lunch with a girl last week how has a 5 year old daughter. The girl kept imterruping her mother and at one point was screaming at her "mommy you are wrong!!" The girl laughed and said she was raising her kids different than her mom raised her. I see this girl as a teenager, screaming obscenities at her mom. Maybe I am just wrong but I would never tolerate disrespect from my children.
9. Dog haters. My dad hated dogs and this was one thing we never agreed on. How can some people live without the love of a pet? (He did have a cat he loved) How can they mistreat them? I cant watch that show on Animal planet, you know the one where the animal control people answer complaints? I am in tears every time I watch it.
10. Liars. I am too old and too set in my ways, but if you want to get on my bad side just lie to me. This goes along with another pet peeve, people that say they are going to do something and never do it and never had any intention of doing it. Case in point my dog sitter that kept making appointments and never showing up.
12. Religious pious hypocrites. People that go to church every Sunday and wends day, volunteer to be deacons or whatever but as soon as they get home talk about everybody else in the church. Tearing them to shreds verbally and starting gossip. I grew up seeing this, not my parents but I have some relatives like this.
13. Hunting, I have to agree with Jen on this one. My hubby used to hunt but now says he wont anymore since we were involved in dog rescue. I don't see sport in killing some defenseless creature. I guess this makes a hypocrite since I do eat meat.
I have one more thing I don't understand
14. Infinity. My mind cannot grasp this concept. Have you ever sat down and thought hard about infinity? Blows my wee mind.
Renee isnt a snob after all!! But Still no Jim from the Office.
2 of my coworkers went back the movie trailers yesterday after work. I was off yesterday and asked at lunch if they were going and was told no, that the production guy said they were leaving and were done downtown. So I didnt come in, but 2 gals decided at the last minute to go and they hit the jackpot LOL. Renee came out of her trailer and was taking pictures of the crowd. She then went into the crowd and signed autographs and posed for pictures! They said she was very very nice. I dont think the crowd was huge, maybe 50 people or so. She laughed and chatted with people too....not at all the snob I thought at first. They said the only time she got a little snarky was with a paparazzi guy that came here from LA. She asked him to stop taking pictures after he got a few and (I think she knew him from before, he must be on the Renee beat LOL) she told him he has more pictures of her than her own family had! She did have a HUGE bodyguard and an assistant with her. Then George came out of his trailer and signed autographs too, he didnt have an entourage, it was just him. My coworker got some of him on video. What a nice nice guy. He kept saying he had to get back to work, I think he had to check the scenes they shot that day or whatever a director does. Jim from the Office did not make an appearance, he may not have even been there if he wasnt needed that day. Anyway I posted my coworkers pictures, she sent them to me. The girl in the one pic with Renee is my coworker, and if you look in the background there is the other coworker, you can only see one eye and one lens of her glasses LOL. I was really jealous last night but today I had another almost medical crisis so I got over my jealously. I thought I had another blood clot in my leg, it was hurting in the same place as before and I was scared and a bit worried about calling wolf but I was really scared so I called the doc and I had an ultrasound which showed NO clot YEAH!!!! But I was worried. And I was in alot of pain today, the first thing I did when I got home was pop a pain pill and I never do that until bedtime usually so I can sleep. I hate calling wolf but I feel much better, I was really scared. I think maybe because my dad just died of that stroke recently that I am too paraniod these days.
bad storms here right now, I am not sure if I will be able to post this. This is the same storm system that spawned a tornado that killed some high school kids in Alabama. Mrs Slushie and any other bloggers out there, be safe and warm tonight!!
If anyone knows George or if you are George (haha) tell him there is a Gal that cant walk that would LOVE to meet him. LOL call me George...punch my digits. email me . I will take whatever I can get! LOL.